brother now and always

magpie called,
window open,
time coming,
life passing.

eyes closed,
we are breathing,
we are one,
now and always.

when you left,
you felt like sleeping,
slow,and slow
perfect rhythm.

when you left
you left me crying,
at your side
as you were dying.

you are brother now
and will be always,
always in this heart of mine.

if i grow old
or fade tomorrow,
you always will be
my big brother.

brother now and always

uncleblack

Joined February 2010

Artist's Description

my brother finally gave up the fight to cancer yesterday morning. he has laboured long over a long time, but recent weeks saw a different transformation, and circumstances made things seem so difficult. yet all the time we spoke of hope, of little plans, of guitars, and tv’s, of ‘a bit of shopping, buy you some new shoes’. we spoke last on friday evening, laughed at how bad sonny was at puppy training i gave him some toast, and ginger conserve. i really believed.

we got the call from the nursing home on saturday morning to say he was not responding and when we arrived he looked so different, like he was already elsewhere. we held him ,spoke to him, kissed him. mum and my wife left the room briefly. i held his hand, closed my eyes, and told him, not out loud, over and over, ’ i love you, i love you’.his breathing changed, it settled into the kind of breathing you would hear when someone is sleeping. and with one long breath, he left us.he left me. i know i will miss him, and i know he would want me to live my life fully, and without fear.

we had many many differences, but at that moment, when it mattered, we found ourselves in the same place, in the same time, and nothing will ever feel more important to me than that. i love you, i love you. if you are ever uncertain, i can tell you with my hand on my heart, death need not be frightening, death is not bad, it is with acknowledgement of it that we can truly live, and give to those we most care about.

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