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Head on!

Head on!

I sit here alone,
a little sadder,a little older,
a little wiser,a little happier,
a little closer,
to shaking hands with death,
one more time!
the burden of words
cast one side
at least for awhile,
I am free yet held tight by the clutches of the beyond,
for evolution,im sure as left me behind
forgetting my song,
my wounds beginning to heal,
my pain hidden deep
within the darkness of the forgotten memories
of my past,
my mind,my thoughts,
heading to places I cannot comprehend,
I fear to understand,
I embrace the past,the poetry,the poverty,
all woven deep within my core,
there is no escape from oneself,
of that i am sure,
I accept the future,
embrace my soul,
speak to god on a level unknown before to me,
still I walk away
with a mind full of sympathy,
i ask?
for whom the bell tolls?
for me of course!
i hear upon the wind,
I watch the skeleton shake and rattle this bag of bones
known to the unknown
as the degradation of society,
head bowed, praying to lost entities,
I hang my head in pain,
for fear of my face reflected
upon the savage moon,
I feel the tears upon humanity
shatter my words,
for just a second I held the hand
of an entity,
unknown to man,
unknown to me,
and for just a second,
I felt a tear within
my heart,
and wondered

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just words…close call…

there is no poetry
within these words
for death was by my side
when i saw the terror within the night
and the beauty within
my mind,
i held out my thoughts
for god to see
walking away with
tear filled eyes,
begging the gods,
for mercy,
just one more time?


  • JRGarland
    JRGarlandover 1 year ago

    Both poems are so very dynamic my friend!!! You are the Man!!!

  • Thank you JR…

    – Rocky Loder

  • devotee1
    devotee1over 1 year ago

    Very touching and beautiful read. For me, these things you speak of began to happen when I started to get outside myself, and relate more as a citizen of the world—becoming sensitive to universal spirit, realizing we are all one in the body of God. When God created this universe, he created it our of Himself. So, we are closer and more responsible for each other than one may wish to think…and farther away from one another when realizing (the utter sense of loneliness) how little we really know about anything—how little we feel when awakened to the fact that each of us has capacity for so much more. Of course, this is working in my life and may not be good for anyone else to believe. So, my two cents added, for even less it may be worth to others.

  • Thank you Joe…I agree and your words mean a great deal….

    – Rocky Loder

  • JaneRoberts
    JaneRobertsover 1 year ago

    I often feel this way and I don’t know if someone relating is comforting or not, even in a crowded place, confusing, never feeling part of the race. x

  • Thank you Jane….I know the feeling…

    – Rocky Loder

  • Karen01
    Karen01over 1 year ago

    Shew, magnificent REAL write. I was there last year, a near-miss that, but for a millimeter and fraction of this elusive thing called time, would have been the end of me. That shook me, deeply. This encapsulates that sense in a real way… beautiful emotive write.. :)

  • Thank you Karen…I agree…it can certainly change ones outlook on life…

    – Rocky Loder

  • Arco Iris  R
    Arco Iris Rover 1 year ago

    There are a lot of things that scare the hell out of you that you in humbleness ask God for undemanding or mercy. We try to go on, though with answered questions, trying to forget our past and try to keep on going but still looking for answers. Sometimes we just get lost but whatever we are at the moment, we are still writing poetry for that is the sinews of the poets life. Whether it be pondering, meditation or just maybe a little depressesed or melancholy where we might sit or sleep all day it does bring fear wondering if what we are doing is worthwhile. Maybe it is all of this that is going on. Today I was planning to change my avatar to a colorful one with a butterfly in hand but just seeing that my profile picture is now the size of a pin head, which I feel we chose to make others and ourselves know who we are, it seems we are been demeenered somewhat as not being personalized in here.I did change my profile, but it with the size of it, I feel it doesn’ I can feel myself. Rocky, you hold on and when you are ready to talk again, write it all down in a ncie paper, of course. Even though I know you are the Rock, but sometimes I think a rock needs a rest from the splashing of the corroding waves.

  • Thank you Iris…I agree…sometimes life catches up to us really fast…as for RB,we should be use to it by now….

    – Rocky Loder

  • TheWanderingBoo
    TheWanderingBooover 1 year ago

    beautiful and emotive write

  • Thank you Boo….

    – Rocky Loder

  • Donna19
    Donna19over 1 year ago

    Oh Rocky! So frightening to go through and I know what you mean. I too have dealt with this. Just so happy your okay my friend. I could feel the terror and confusion of why as well. Many times in my own life I pondered the why but ultimately I know it was to wake me up (just one more time). I’m sure you know what I mean by that. It isn’t that we aren’t listening but rather that we aren’t listening to right message. These close calls aren’t what we should focus on but rather the outcome of it. I think you are soooo loved and so special of a person that your being given life for a special reason and until you “hear” what that is your “sleep” will always continue to be interrupted. Not trying to preach just know so well what this is. Just really really happy your okay my dear friend. xxxxx

  • Thank you Donna,there are times when a feller like me needs an whole lot of preach in too,lol…thank you again Donna…

    – Rocky Loder

  • eon .
    eon .over 1 year ago

    Each moment .. The present one
    A long time we all spend in eternity
    Each second here? A first new one to savor
    Big depth in your out put mate
    To be alive? Is better than dead "-))
    I keep telling myself too cheers

  • I agree eon,even though at times there’s a whole lot of tings that can happen in the matter of seconds that just can’t be explsinedm,I have sorta got really fond of living,thank you eon….

    – Rocky Loder

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindover 1 year ago

    Rocky, I have read this twice, both, and at first I thought it was one of those unexplainable experiences, where you truly ‘sense’ something so strong and powerful for moments, but are not sure what it is. Then next read, I realized perhaps it was a not so good experience, which I am not sure of what you mean, but seriously felt an end close by. I think with my first read, I still have that Boston thing going on and seem to be relating everything to that, not sure. Anyway, wow, was a gripping read and more than anything glad you are ok.
    Hugs for you, shar xoxoxoxoxoxox

  • Thank you shar,I wrote this just after being in a car accident,that could have been very serious,but luckily there was no one hurt,I tink in some strange way it changed my outlook on life ,not many would admit this but it was my fault,I believe I finally realised how precious life is and how fast it could be taken away….I have always been intriqued by the conception of death,its why I write the way I do,but noe I believe I have truly touched it?

    – Rocky Loder

  • CanyonWind
    CanyonWindover 1 year ago

  • Thank you PoPs….appreciated….really like the banner….

    – Rocky Loder

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