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Im new to all this I became self employed last year after damaging my spine in an accident at work. The damage seemed to be to such an extent that going back to running a busy repro department in a litho firm was out the question. So I decided to go back to my first love taking photographs I have been involved in photography and print one way or another but mostly on the printing side since I was 15. I am only just getting used to working with a digital camera I find it not as forgiving as film an certainly not as easy to bend the rules with. But im new a novice to many ways of the new era of painting with light. I worked in the darkroom an then with litho print I was the one that made the photographer look good at the end result.

I find these days I’m increasingly astounded at the over saturated over filtered highly imaginative colours that supposedly sell photographs also the lack of quality control in supposed professional labs, most of the comments I have received on my work go along the lines of ‘I like it because you capture it exactly as I see each an every day I walk my dog,” ” you don’t fake anything,do you its all real right there” “you have really high quality work here,” “you care an you can see you love your work”. This I guess it was makes me tick the passion to get it right even if they didn’t buy it they loved it, it made them smile bought back a memory gave them a lift.

This year has been a tough one for me new area to discover miles away from family and friends my choice for the ease of shooting beautiful places and the cost of living compared to London and Medway towns.

But now I have to come to terms with the realization that my back isn’t just a busted vertabrae or 3 for that matter, its not going to get operated on or gt better. I am actually losing the ability to walk great distances, or sit for to long at my Apple Mac doing design work for people, or even have the energy to get out of bed because I have Fybromayalgia. Im still learning about this disability it has knocked me sideways finding this out an im still reeling that I am actually disabled not just getting old.

So if im not on here as much as I should be if I dont update images as often as I should an If I dont answer anyones emails its possibly because I havent been able to Im truly sorry.

I dont want to close my account here as now more than ever I do need the money but I realize I may not as active as some and for that I am sorry.

Its taken a lot to admit this to myself infact as I write this Im in tears but maybe by writing it down somewhere it will actually sink in im no longer the mountain gazelle I once was an my moon chasing days maybe numbered.

Now more than ever I envy the ability that you all have to just grab your camera an get that shot. Before i was always busy with the pressures of the job now I just physically cant. Cherish this time you have please dont put off a days shoot if you have an hour get out an get something anything. I for one regret spending all my life working in darkrooms or repro houses and doing everything bar what I love most to keep the big man happy and bills paid as now I don’t know how much longer I will be able to get my camera gear an carry it on a shoot.

blessing to you all for bringing such beauty into our lives

love light an laughter be thine

Tracey