we have so many pretty pictures,
but where have you gone.
I can only see the smiles and poses we practiced,
not the spontaneity we were famous for.
I hear your voice on occasion,
so distant but comforting, until your ripped away again.
I need you here to make me laugh at my own disasters,
help me realise the hilarity of it all.
without you i am just constantly looking over my shoulder,
maybe you are still there, only one step behind
who will I call when my life is being difficult,
throwing up obstacles I cant drive around
who will i call when i feel sick
just wanting to be in someones arms.
I guess I will just to wait until you can call me,
whenever I can squeeze into your structured routine.
I hope I still make you laugh,
I hope our memories make you smile.
Dont lose your beautiful soul
or I will be forever angry that your missing.
I send my love to you in an envelope,
(hoping it is not confiscated with the jellybeans.)
Just a progression of thoughts about me missing you… X