theheartpounds

to fall asleep to your smile

is simply not enough.

i fill in the blanks with dreams of you,

still being the centre of every scene.

and when i wake to your face

i know exactly…

Tracing patterns upon your skin,
As if I am executing them
for the first time.

Im not sure who you are
Not ready to let you in
Am I just another
Being reeled out and in.

She visits me
In cycles,
Through familiar shapes and sounds.

I’ll pretend each time
you’re different,
(you have changed)

And love until it breaks.

I wish I could leave it all behind
Pretend I offer nothing but friendship
But I sit here with tears in my eyes
Frustrated that you are all that’s on my mind
Its impossible. I know that now …

Sitting in a house with a stranger
We’ve shared a bed, our bodies, our time, our space
But never part of ourselves.
Our eyes don’t meet,
our fingers don’t fold over another’s,
our bodie…

I saw the words upon her skin
They pushed me away
And lured me in.
I wrote the words on her skin
Didn’t realise how quickly
they would sink in.

I don’t understand you
How can you, so small,
Make a big difference?

How is it that you think you can change my life?
I don’t trust you,
sly and sneaky.

I have lived without you
No…

small quirks i cant escape.

i will miss our hellos
but not our goodbyes.

every moment we spend
is the happiest i can remember.
every smile, every laugh,
every stupid random moment.

I have taken these moments …

we have so many pretty pictures,
but where have you gone.

I can only see the smiles and poses we practiced,
not the spontaneity we were famous for.

I hear your voice on occasion,
s…

All these pictures
I draw with conviction.
They mean everything to me.
A summary of the crowding thoughts that steal my sleep.

Yet in the morning
when i have slept away my midnight worri…