I have never met anyone who had so little faith.
I have never known anyone to compare their happiness to when there was none.
And be so angry at the none
So that they turn away from the gifts, so that their eyes are closed forever to progress.
I have never met anyone like you.
If I had half of who you are to claim as my own.
How you’ve triumphed more than I could ever dream.
People fall from the grace some instill in them all the time.
But you….you jumped from the ledge. And it was all my fault.
But if only I was half of who you were then.
I wouldn’t have made the same choices.
What is it to bask for you? To trust yourself that completely?
I am so sorry that I love you more than you think I should.
That’s so me, isn’t it? To do it all wrong…
What is it for you to just unclench your muscles? Unfold those arms.
You have taught me to balance on this beam alone.
You have given me the strength to stop all need and want
and just be happy that I got pancakes on Sunday mornings.
You have taught me that I can lean on no one. Ever.
You have reminded me that I am all that is left at the end of the day.
And that you are just here sometimes. You are just a perk.
Give someone all they ever asked for
and they’ll complain about what they still dont have.
I want you to know I never asked for you to be anything.
I want you to know that I have asked for love and kindness.
But isn’t it always the case….when we dont get the simple things
that we complain about what we dont have?
Because we do not have it.
Check the grocery list that is our forever…and you’ll see.
You are beautiful. And you are loved.
You are frustrating. And you are blocked.
You are laughter and you are tears. You are tall.
And yet so small within.
And I have never met anyone like you.