The Photograph

Each time I look at your photograph a little more of me dies inside. I tell myself not to open the album to keep it closed, sealed holding you fast within its pages. But I feel the pull to look into your blue-grey eyes and wonder what I would see reflected back at me. A longing for the never never…

The ache is real. I feel it spearing me as a lepidopterist spears a butterfly to their board. A lifeless form, still iridescent in its beauty but no longer able to dance through the breeze on its delicate wings alighting where and when it pleases.

My gaze travels your face. Reading the stories etched around your eyes and the corners of your mouth. My hands long to be soothing over your temple, letting my fingers run through your hair feeling its texture and watching it ripple as the light catches the mellow shades of colour.

My eyes rest upon your parted lips, their smile fixed in celluloid. My lips to brush yours in the first moments of a tender kiss. Feeling the hunger and desire for more – a lifetime to explore each other…

Each time I close the album, I linger for just one moment more telling himself that this will be the last time I do this, but I know it wont be… and each time a little more of me dies inside…



© AF Matthews 09


  • Christie  Moses

    Christie Moses

    Oh this hurts my heart to read. Sometimes photos capture the very essence of someone and its so hard to open up those albums and remember. :(
    HUGS xoxox

  • Teacup replied

    Hugs to you to Christie – photos hold time still and its this that can leave us feeling the longing when we relook at them. x

  • hsien-ku

    hsien-ku

    such a beautiful sorrow-filled poem.. ‘as a lepidopterist spears a butterfly’, such sadness in that line. wonderful writing.

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much for the wonderful comment. I was feeling the deep sorrow when I wrote this. x

  • DilettantO

    DilettantO

    This will resonate with anyone who has known true love, only to lose it. Beautiful work X

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks Owen… I’m sure many will relate for many different reasons. x

  • ArcadiaTempest

    ArcadiaTempest

    Brilliantly composed…. heartfelt and reaches inside to the reader with a hook that tears one… You write with the skill of a fine craftsman weaving here a story that is known, felt and lamented by many. For all the pain exposed and raw here….it is beautifully written to bring us all to the same table, to know this is not something that someone has to be feel alone…XXX

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much for the beautiful comment. I know I am not alone in this feeling, or need to be alone with the sorrow it can bring. xxx

  • rubyjo

    rubyjo

    oh teacup, you show your emotions so well. studying the face, yeah, i get that.

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much rubjo – always love your stopping by and commenting. xx

  • autumnwind

    autumnwind

    so painful, amazingly written. I am so sorry for your hurt. with love and hugs, shar xoxoxo

  • Teacup replied

    Thank you dear shar for your compassion and love. xx

  • silverstrummer -  David Everitt

    silverstrummer...

    I can feel the longings on this that hurt us so, those special times, those touches, that wink, that smile, the fun – No More just a memory they are good memories. Arcadia has described it perfectly. Although The Photograph is sad …...... but it was written beautifully – David

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks you so much for the wonderful comment David… its also about the what if’s and maybe’s when looking at a photograph – the possibilities and longing all mixed up together. x

  • JRGarland

    JRGarland

    Memories can be very painful indeed. Photos brings back the sharpened images for the memories to abide. Letting go of the pain is so hard to do. Perhaps one day it won’t hurt so badly. I hope so. Well written.

  • Teacup replied

    Thank you JR… letting go of the pain is hard, its a daily task. xx

  • Paul Rees-Jones

    Paul Rees-Jones

    Ah…hugs to you dear.

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks Paul and a wonderful hug it is too. x

  • PJ Ryan

    PJ Ryan

    What an absolutely beautiful piece of writing. So tender and yet so full of ache.

    The ache is real. I feel it spearing me as a lepidopterist spears a butterfly to their board

    incredible line xo

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks PJ, your comment is so wonderful and means a great deal to me. x

  • Alison Pearce

    Alison Pearce

    Brilliant!! Shivers ran up my spine Alison!

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much Alison, Alison (tehe!) xx

  • artyfifi

    artyfifi

    So very beautiful. Emotion runs through this piece like a delicate golden thread. Wonderful write, from the heart. xxx

  • Teacup replied

    Wow, Fi, what a beautiful comment. Thank you. x

  • Shoaib .

    Shoaib .

    ahhh an ode to the old photos
    sighhhh
    i know this one well
    love the metaphor with the butterful
    thats a new one but very unique
    great work here teacup !!!!

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much Shoaib, really appreciate your comment. x

  • happyfeet5

    happyfeet5

    Yes, photos will do that to you. I hid my mother’s photo who died almost 13 years ago for about three years, until I was ready to see it again. Then I put it in the desk where I would be forced to look at it so that I wouldn’t feel that awful feeling I used to when I saw it before. Beautiful written and I am with you with your thoughts. Iris

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much Iris. I hope for you that the pain has eased and looking at your mother’s photo only brings you peace and happiness. xx

  • lawrie .

    lawrie .

    Beautifully written, your style in this is so much that of a writer of classics, when you start to read its as if a light hand slips into my own and floats me over the words, the descriptions draw clear pictures, almost as clear as seeing the photograph, fantastic write…now in true lawrie style…it also left me humming a tune, ‘if i had a photograph of you or something to remind me, i wouldn’t spend my life just wishing….Who was that???? xoxo

  • Teacup replied

    Hello there, thanks as ever for such a beautiful comment… not sure of the song you refer to, but had been listening to “A picture paints a thousand words” by Bread when this came into my head..xxxxooo

  • msdebbie

    msdebbie

    I really love the way you’ve combined some short snappy sentences with longer, more metaphorical ones. Really liked the following in particular
    1) The ache is real.
    2) My gaze travels your face.
    3) Feeling the hunger and desire for more – a lifetime to explore each other…
    Lovely expressions and beautiful sentiment to the story

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much msdebbie for such a wonderful comment, as ever. xx

  • ShadowDancer

    ShadowDancer

    This is a beautiful piece of work, yes, the ache is truly able to be felt.

  • Teacup replied

    Thank you so much ShadowDancer – its always amazing when someone can feel what it is you are trying to express. xx

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  • Teacup replied

    Thank you so much for the wonderful honour. Would love to thank the other hosts – where is a good place formy thanks… never sure – is it under journals or messages? Anyway, a big thank you to all. Have a huge smile on my dial! Love your new avatar pic – beautiful. xx

  • Enivea

    Enivea

    Congratulations on your very well deserved feature. It’s is beautifully written.

  • Teacup replied

    Thanks so much Enivea – always lovely to meet someone new on this wonderful world of the Bubble! xx

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