Don't Gamble With The Devil

I’ve been a compulsive addictive gambler in my time; often going to attend GA/Gamblers Anonymous meetings. Once the compulsion has already started; then, it’s almost next to impossible to stop! I’ve gambled on just about anything and everything in my time; ranging from one armed bandit machines, national lottery, football pools, baseball, tennis, cricket, snooker, racing cars, dogs, horses, black jack, poker, will it snow on Christmas day, -etc. The only thing I learned from having developed my gambling addiction was sometimes you win; which is just enough to tempt you to keep on gambling; but, most times, you loose…especially, when you add it all up in the long run. Over the years, I’ve both gambled and lost around 80 grand +; which is the cost of say a whole entire house! Currently, I’m unemployed; the only way I can find to not bet is when I’m totally flat broke. And, even then if it’s possible to either steal/borrow/or else, get credit; then, I would go and bet with that money, instead. The addictive gambler no longer trusts or believes in themselves anymore; neither does anybody else around them; including friends/family/-etc. I read somewhere that addictive gambling has officially been classified as being a form of mental illness. As any serious addict knows it’s not easy to stop; even when you are not gambling; you are still gambling in your own mind’s eye; so if you were watching TV, and, your fav. football team were to win; you’d be thinking to yourself I lost because I didn’t I bet on it?! No matter how many times you loose…you still believe in the illusion that you can and will win. Yes, in my own very bitter experience, I’d say that gambling is indeed playing with the Devil himself; because it really all amounts up to killing yourself. I’ve been to GA/Gamblers Anonymous meetings where the gambling addict confessed that they had gone and slit their own two wrists; due to gambling non stop 24/7/366…as they were unable to even think of doing anything else when your mind keeps saying that ‘money is everything’! And, even after having gone and slit their wrists; after having been hospitalized for it; they still want to go on gambling…! My best advice is don’t both getting yourself with gambling in the first place; otherwise, you may find yourself having drawn up a contract with the Devil that you just can’t get out of; gambling is a noose which constantly strangles you right up until when you are dead!