In this art work I stand on a broken clock being licked by flames. The flames circle around in a heart shape showing my zeal for healing. The significance of this piece is that the clock is the watch I had in my pocket the day my entire world changed. The crack in it isn’t a digital manipulation.
When I look at this piece I am reminded that for me, at the very moment the watch was broken, my life stopped. It stopped until I had the strength and support to stand on my feet and start again; start the healing process with burning zeal.
Currently the pocket watch hangs in my library above the fireplace. I see it everyday. It symbolizes that I had the strength and support to not return. It symbolizes that I had the strength and support to stop in the fire when needed.
This is the poem that accompanies the art. It was written specifically for the piece:
I will not stand still or hope without cause
Or leave my mind burdened with baggage
Leave it weeping and tired.
Moments of joy skip over my sorrow filled mind
Like rocks on a pond they sink never to resurface
But not today
Today in a sigh of relief I began to breathe, to really breathe.
Tired shoulders hold burdens not even mine
Responsibility heaped upon them high like great mountains and someone else’s
Crimes attached to my spine to mark each step as black and dirty, black and dirty.
But today, the weight of yesterday and the fear of tomorrow slip down the back of my neck like a cold chill
I shiver at the thought of this freedom
At the thought of not wearing regret upon my heart or guilt as shoes
I wonder how I will walk with feet unbound
With burdens that are only mine
With dreams that come true or ones I toss away at my choosing
I wonder how I walk with feet unbound.
Art and poem were created by F. Magdalene Austin
SUNDRIP – Art for Life