DON'T BE FOOLED BY ME

skik
Author: skik
Word Count: 327
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DON'T BE FOOLED BY ME

This piece came from a seminar I attended a few years back I DID NOT WRITE THIS and the author is unknown
Any help would be greatly appreciated in finding the original source of this work as I found it a very moving piece as has everyone that has read it since and it would be nice to know where it came from
Thanks – skik

Don’t be fooled by me,
Don’t be fooled by the face I wear,
For I wear a thousand masks, masks that I am afraid to take off
and none of them are me Pretending is an art that is second nature with me, but don’t be
fooled for gods sake don’t be fooled
I give the impression that I’m secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without, that confidence is my name and coolness is my game; that the waters calm and I’m in command, and that I need no one.
But don’t be fooled by me. Please………..

My surface may be smooth, but my surface is my mask.
Beneath this lies no complacence.
Beneath this lies the real me in confusion, in fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don’t want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear of being
exposed
That is why I frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant, sophisticated façade, to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows
But such a glance is precisely my salvation
My only salvation, and I know it.
That is if it’s followed by acceptance, if it’s followed by love.
It’s the only thing that will assure me of what I can’t assure myself- that I am worth something
But I don’t tell you this. I don’t dare. I’m afraid to
I’m afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance and love.
I’m afraid that deep down I’m nothing, that I’m no good and that you will see this and reject me.
So I play my game, my desperate game, with a façade of assurance without and a trembling child within.
So begins the parade of masks. Now my life becomes a front.

Who am I, you may wonder. I am someone you know very well
For I am every man and woman you meet.

  • saleire

    saleire

    Oh Mick…....what a wonderful piece! I am stunned by this…....because it is so true. Thank you so much for finding the treasure and sharing it with us.

  • skik replied

    my pleasure sal it’s a beautiful peice and felt it should be shared for all to see

  • adgray

    adgray

    You will make me cry again wont you lol
    Still as moving now as I read it when we met
    thank you darling xoxoxoxxox

  • Michelle Boyer

    Michelle Boyer

    Wonderful piece and I’m sorry to say I don’t know the source of it either. Seems to be describing me…

  • skik replied

    thanks michelle i think this peice describes everyone and anyone that dosnt agree is in denial

  • binjy
  • skik replied

    Thanks so much Binjy
    i went to a weekend seminar about 6 years ago run by Nicklaus DeCastella called passionately alive (you can find it on Google too) when i sat down and opened the folder we where given on registration it was this poem that was staring back at me and the words have stayed with me ever since so it is great to know where the these touching words have come from

  • D. AMO

    D. AMO

    binjy U R TOO SWEET!, clever, generous, loving, smart, beautiful, timely,subtle, true, magnificoo, able, enjoyable and furthering! I was going to look up a quote…........Ok, maybe I will b back!

  • D. AMO

    D. AMO

    I M…not sure if it is by Deborah Storer who sent it to me or?

    “Be humble, for the worst thing in the world is of the same stuff as you; be confident, for the stars are of the same stuff as you.”

  • binjy

    binjy

    :) Sounds as if it was a worthwhile seminar! Glad you know know the origins of these much-travelled words …

  • amarica

    amarica

    Wonderfully written, very deep with true understanding, a beautiful heart went into this my friend!

  • skik replied

    I wish they where my words but alas no I can only take credit for sharing them with others

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