New Crowd... Thank You~
Took me the whole day to process all the lovely favs and watchlists and comments on my journal, SilentCries = Frozenfa = Fa and especially Karin’s journal
all these while, i’ve been so so afraid. i still wonder how is it that you guys can still accept me with the style of drawings i have in this gallery.. you guys makes me wonder if you’re real.. reading all the comments.. i felt kinda confused.. i feel glad that i’m still accepted.. yet at the same time i wonder if it’s for real.. or have i just become another entertainer to the people here, like i am to my real-life friends..
but then i realised how some of you guys are still there for me despite my down time! when i’m down or moody or gone.. seems like you guys still forgive me for disappearing.. some of you guys worry for me.. i find it a wonder..
pardon me for saying this, but to be cared for.. to be loved.. i still find it foreign.. hehe.. yea.. weird.. i often used to think that someone cared for me or loved me, but in the end, i often got brushed aside like the old shmelly teddy bear.. so, i kinda fear to accept that i might just be lovable.. hnnn…. give me some time.. ^ _ ^“
Thank you, everyone.. Thank you so very much. all of you!! for the comments and replied and bmails.. thank you!!
dang i sound like some celebrity getting some award.. XD
New Crowd... Thank You~ belongs to the following groups:
All Out Emotion, Artists with Disabilities, Deep Within, Singapore, The Healing Journey and Voices of the Dark and the DeepTonight, there’s this feeling in me..
as though suddenly
all the mean crowd around the cage just dispersed..
instead, some familiar faces came by..
instead of laughter and teases, i hear their well wishes..
hi-s and hello-s..
take care-s and love you-s…
these crowd of people.. they’re nice..
they don’t laugh at me..
they don’t tease me..
they seem to understand me..
they don’t seem too afraid of me..
it scares me a bit.. i wonder if they’re real..
i know they are, but still…
it’s too amazing..
makes me just want to put my hands on the cage..
and lean my forehead on the cool cool glass..
suddenly, i feel safe..
like, i’m accepted..?
me and my monster, we’re accepted..
somehow, i don’t know how.. but we’re accepted..
these people beyond the glass..
are they real? they have to be.. for each of them carry their own stories..
are they like me? they seem so strong, so supported, so loved..
maybe that’s how they can afford to love me as well?
i can be loved..?
is that really true?
i look at everyone beyond the glass..
thank you.. thank you, all of you..
for every words you say,
for every lil encouragements you give this unworthy one..
oh wait.. i’m not unworthy? am i?
i guess i have to forget those harsh words by the previous crowd..
they’re not real, right? they’re words are not real, i hope..?
thank you, dear crowd..
thank you, for calming down the beast in me..
thank you for letting me shed this tears
thank you for letting me know that i am not alone
thank you for letting me know that i am loved..
thank you for everything~
yanmos
i dont know what to say to you just that i miss your presence here, your comments, your disagreement with me about the shirt color!. Hope to get back soon…be well fa!
barnsis
Yes we are real and we accept you exactly as you are. I am accepted even though I am fat and ugly so why should a person whose soul shines like a bright star at night not be accepted. Brilliantly written.
Vestque
Hugz Your so cool, it’s impossible not to accept you! Besides we all have a monster hanging on our shoulders…..Mines is a giant purple blob named Hunka Chunka…He’s a shy creature and he likes to wear a little hat tilted to the side…XD
Angela Harburn
Miss you loads on RB dearest Fa – come out from that dreadful cage now – we are here waiting for you and wishing you well, always! xxx
georgiegirl
I understand you still questioning the whys and hows and reality of it all. But hear this, my friend… just because we’re virtual friends, does not mean it isn’t genuine.
And you need to believe that it’s all true. You are a wonderful person, who is so helpful and friendly to everyone you ‘meet’. Why shouldn’t people respond the same back to you?
Stories are always heard in the news about this virtual world and the lies people tell while using it. But we all know the newspeople just love spreading bad news. Hopefully I won’t be proved wrong when I say the Bubblers and Elves of RB are different. At least the one’s I’ve ‘met’ so far are genuinely friendly and honest.
But your real world is different to mine too… So I’m so glad you are here in the bubbles showing your true self through beautiful words and gorgeous artworks.
Please stay safe and become trully happy within yourself and know that you are genuinely accepted and loved for who you are. Even if I (we) only know you virtually.
xxGG
Karin Taylor
... you know Fa, it’s hard for us to see you struggle,
just as when i’ve struggled, you’ve felt compassion and empathy
and reached out to me, so I reach out to you…....
... it was you who first rescued me…...
... it was you who gave me good and strong counsel …..
... it was you who were my strength when I had none….
... it was you who reassured me when I felt misunderstood and lonely…..
do you see why we are friends, because you reached out to me, you saw I was struggling….. you helped me, your strength was like a jump-start for me, it pulled me out of despair and helped me gain a foothold again…....
others here have had this experience of you too…
_Fa….
you are helpful and you are kind
even tho you sometimes find
you have a tortured of heart and mind
but there’s nothing you could ever do or say
to make me run and hide away
I’ve felt sad and I’ve felt blue
and what really really helped me out
was you!!!_
Thank you Fa for being my friend, for being you…...
we all love you, it is really real…. i know the people
here that are responding to you, and i can vouch for
them, they are pretenders… they are honest and real…
All my love
Karin xoxo
Karin Taylor
i meant to say they are NOT pretenders fa…. oopsies :)))
udonchow
You have seen me in flesh, I should be real right? hehe! Love you and your monster ^ _ ^