Agony
When the agony is too much to bear
And you have no one to turn to
What will you do?
i’ve been dealing with depression for the last 4yrs plus. honestly, i don’t really find it funny or anything to be proud of. but i work hard, and try to make light my condition as much as possible, in hope that people will accept me for my humor at least.
but there are times when the pain and agony gets too much to bear.. when i just want to lash out at those who hurt me, at those to jeer at me, at those who despise me, at those who looks down on me. but that is wrong. i know. violence is wrong. to hurt somebody physically is wrong. but to be abused mentally is ok? nope.. i don’t think so..
i’ve heard many different advices.. some of them more sensible than others.. but it all comes down to “it’s easier said than done”. Don’t you agree? it’s always easier to advice others.. but it’s so hard to accept advices ourselves.. but we must always remember, ultimately, it’s up to us to make the choices to solve our problems, to free us from our pain. we can only hope for our beloved ones to help us. but we mustn’t depend on them. we too, must help ourselves, to free ourselves from our agony.
this is the advice from the girl who gets mentally abused from the people she loved and trusted since birth..
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Vestque
Wow
silentcries replied
thank you for popping by, Vestque! n_n”
Karin Taylor
it’s hard when you know that the image depicts innermost turmoil
but knowing how rewarding it is to express and make sense of that
inner turmoil, this all makes perfect sense to me, express it, get it out.
don’t leave it to fester inside, as when left to simmer in the darkness,
the feelings grow inside that dark incubator, but once brought out into
the light, the feelings lessen in power to control your actions and thoughts…
alleviating the feeling of ‘i am going to explode’ and allowing one to see truth
and be relieved of any distortion of the facts. By sharing your thoughts and feelings
and hearing other people’s feedback of how they see you, you are able to better align
yourself with the truth of who you really are, a very special beautiful friend.
silentcries replied
eeh.. sorry for my late reply for this Karin… a lot’s been happening eh? n_n” thank you for encouraging me to put it up here too.. initially, i thought i’d upload my darker designs elsewhere, cos i fear no one like like me if they see these.. thank you for being here for me, Karin~ Big furry hugs!!
Xirod
very powerful
silentcries replied
thank you~! =D
zomboy
Hello,
Depression is really full one. You have captured it inredibly well I think….. My sister suffers from depression and has done so for some time now. Do you have any advice as a brother as to what I can do to help her?
silentcries replied
Hi Zomboy, sorry am late! i’ll be working on this new group which i managed to join in as a moderator ... basically, i’ll work on creating sections in the forum for people who’re troubled to share their woes and complains.. sorta like a place for them to vent their frustrations and sadness out.. i’ll also be creating a section for Tips and Advices from the Experienced, where some of us can share on how and what helps us.. things like that.. i think it’ll be useful eh?
so sorry for my late reply.. i’ve head about your sis, sometimes calling you, crying and you’re lost as to what you can do for her? please do check out this webbie they have some useful tips on how to help.. and most most most importantly, you gotta read this... i feel that it’s important for people who’re trying to help someone they love in the safest way possible.. when i was having it, i manage to have a clear state of mind still, so i manage to observe and research for myself.. i think this is very important.. a lot of times, i get people keep saying things that end up cheesing me off further.. comments such as “it’s all in your head”, you might want to avoid that.. hehe.. i remember how i teased my friend with a comic for a comment she gave me about thinking happy thoughts .. mainly it’s about not being too vague when giving advices.. cos someone depressed might conjure their own thinking, which might end up backfiring your plan..
and finally!! please, take care of yourself.. i hope you won’t be too pressurised by your sis. remember the first link ... i intend to create a section in the forum too for volunteers and helpers so that they can talk and share and help each other as well.. will work on that as soon as i can~
Sheila Pasket
WOW….awesome work, and your words are so true!! I know first hand how cruel people can be, but you have to be you! You have to take care of you, because if you don’t….no one else is going to either. Good luck to you!! I wish you all the best.
silentcries replied
Hi Sheila! sorry for my late reply.. n_n”
You have to take care of you, because if you don’t….no one else is going to either. i agree!! which was what made me come up with this design actually.. hehe.. thank you for your lovely well wishes~! Hugs.. X)
udonchow
Thank you so much for your courage in sharing and allowing you to be you. That’s always what I admired about you :D And yes I definitely can see the efforts you have put in to make your condition better and I also agree with you that it is up to us to make the choices to solve our problems and be the person that we truly feel that’s what we are. I dont know what to do to help you alleviate the pain and suffering within….you are one of the kindest soul who has ever crossed my path and it pains me to see you in this state too.
silentcries replied
OO” thank me? i should be thanking all of you for accepting and loving me still!! no need to thank me.. as for the courage to share this.. it was really Karin’s credit.. i actually thought of posting these elsewhere and keep a secret about it.. hehe.. XD you’ve helped me enough already by accepting me still, Ellen!! thank you so so much! Hugs~
Midori Furze
fa-sama
This is very powerful and beautiful work.
I love it.
I really love it.
silentcries replied
eeh!! i don’t deserve the honorific, Midori-sama.. am just a mere young woman trying to stay alive and stay sane.. thank you so much for accepting me still, Midori-sama!! Hugs hugs~
Romo
excellent:)
silentcries replied
n_n” thank you, Romo.. X)
yanmos
this is soooo good fa! great new gallery!!!
silentcries replied
thank you, Yannis! glad you’re not turned off by the ugliness.. n_n” Hugs~! =D
CheriesArt
We all have it…the other side of the happy – the other side of joking, funny, charming, outward wonderful people that we are…we have our inner demons, our longings, sorrows, conflicts, sadness, depressions, mood swings, insecurities…we all do…we just have them in different ways and on different levels, at different times…but we all have to be there for each other. Let us have them, they won’t destroy us, they make us who we are, and stronger…just sharing your inner torment is healthy for you….it’s a ‘release’ and support is always here if you need it!! You must know that!
I know…that if I cried out to you…that you would be there for me!
silentcries replied
Hi Cherie!! thank you for dropping by.. thank you for not minding me sharing my darkest side and for your kind words too.. Hugs~!
Karin Taylor
Hi Fa… those references are really excellent, i hope you don’t mind i’ve added them to my journal as well as some others from the same website for easy reference!! The group is also a great idea, am so happy you are now a moderator of this group…congrats and I believe it will make a difference to people :)))
silentcries replied
no probbie, Karin!! i love that webbie.. it’s detailed, but simple and easy to understand.. there’s lotsa helpful and useful information too.. hope i can work on the group further during this weekend! =D
zomboy
Hello,
thank you so much for all your assistance here. Its a issue that touches so many peoples lives, if you can help others and seek guidence through artistic mediums at the same time I think that will be an amazing achievement on your part. Its nice to know that people really do care and are taking this on board. thank you so much…....
silentcries replied
no problem, Zomboy! hope your sis will be able to recover soon.. it’s not easy having to deal with depression.. been having it for more than 3yrs.. it’s been hard on my bro, i can tell.. do stay strong for your sis, k! if at anytime you feel lost or don’t know what to do, do feel free to bmail me, k? or you can join in this forum... i’ll work on improving it this weekend.. take care! =)
Alan Findlater
excellent work well done
silentcries replied
thank you, Alan~ n_n”
Equinspire
Gosh. I think I needed to read that this morning. I’m so glad you decided to share these works on here! Thank you!