you linger
like an imprint
residing deep inside of me

invisible roots
that have wound around
the inside of my guts
and layered with twisted knots
that I cannot cut
from my soul

your fragments play
to the ghosts in my memory
like a grand matador…
my love was the bull that
you slaughtered

and even though
it feels
like I’m swallowing thorns

I still feel you

your presence is a rage
flowing through my veins
setting me on fire
with every pounding
of my heart

you climbed inside of me
the first second I knew you
and even though you’re gone
you will forever scrape
and claw under my skin

I don’t know how
to remove the pieces of you
that remain

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sometimes people climb so deep inside of us we can’t get them out

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  • Lisa  Jewell
    Lisa Jewellalmost 3 years ago

    oh Darling PJ,
    such a person will always remain,

    it is up to us to find our way to live as we are…

    I know people say time will heal
    and heal and heal and so forth
    but for me the truth really is
    there is some hurts that remain always, they are part of who we are now.
    this does not mean we can’t live rich lives…

    I so get this
    much love to you

  • ah sweet sweet Lisa.. you write such wisdom, and it’s so comforting.. i feel your arms around my heart. thank you truly for the friendship and sharing we have done over the years. <3

    – ShadowDancer

  • Dr. Harmeet Singh
    Dr. Harmeet Singhalmost 3 years ago


  • thank you!

    – ShadowDancer

  • MoonlightLover
    MoonlightLoveralmost 3 years ago

    We are all like wet cement inside. Everyone we come across in our life leaves a footprint or two.

  • so so so true (and beautifully said)

    – ShadowDancer

  • B.C. Beck
    B.C. Beckalmost 3 years ago

    Beautiful. I can connect only too well.

  • thank you britta, sadly i’m sorry you connect but in the same time, this emotional sharing is what makes us human. i hope you are well healed.

    – ShadowDancer

  • Robin Monroe
    Robin Monroealmost 3 years ago

    yes, I so feel this:)

  • seems we all have our own stories of footsteps left in our soul. i hope yours has healed and are just memories.

    – ShadowDancer

  • Alison Pearce
    Alison Pearcealmost 3 years ago

    Fabulous write!

  • thank you alison!

    – ShadowDancer

  • Del Millar
    Del Millaralmost 3 years ago

    A beautifully written expression of the loss and the missing, PJ.
    Think about you, love oxo

  • thank you sweetie, so good to see you.

    – ShadowDancer

  • msdebbie
    msdebbiealmost 3 years ago

  • i love you.

    – ShadowDancer

  • carnal
    carnalalmost 3 years ago

    Well written and so gripping on our guts, churning them with emotion.

  • thank you so much, i really appreciate the support from you and your lovely group.

    – ShadowDancer

  • tori yule
    tori yulealmost 3 years ago

    Our gallery Touched By Your Words is open for your viewing pleasure and comments.
    inessence is our Star of Week. Head over here to give her your support.
    Thank you.
    May 2012

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