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Pain is a demanding tenant
coiled at the base of my spine
it’s up at all hours
of the night -
claws its way up
my ribcage
like a ladder
digging its talons
into my tailbone
it perches
on my Adam’s Rib
grabs me by my throat
and takes me
shakes me
wakes me up
then
breaks me down

bit by bit
bone by bone

banging on my skull
like a drum
pouding out its beat
in my blood
in a frenzy
that brings me to my
knees
- i hit the ground
then hit the bottle

pills
or wine

two, four, six, nine -

its all the same
its all in the name
of drowning the pain
my troublesome tenant
(i should really raise the rent)
until it evolves
grows some gills
and it will
because you can’t kill it
and you can’t kick it out
you can only make its home
a little less hospitable

for awhile

Until it develops a habit
right along with you
and then, my friend,
You’re screwed.

Tags

portrait, woman, female, back, pain, strength, selfportrait, torso, brace, corset, crossprocess

Comments

  • x- pose
    x- poseabout 5 years ago

    I hope I won´t forget the strength that you show, when my time has come to live with a certain desease!!! You give hope, you´re laying traces!!!

  • Selkie
    Selkieabout 5 years ago

    It’s amazing what we find we can live with when we have no choice, and the strength we can muster at the end of the day – the only thing to do is face life with grace and a sense of humor.
    I wish you the best with your illness, x. Thank you :)

  • micklyn
    micklynabout 5 years ago

    Beautiful image, powerful words.

  • Thank you, micklyn.

    – Selkie

  • Tama Blough
    Tama Bloughabout 5 years ago

    Amazing – living with pain should never have to happen but you seem to be confronting it well and head-on.

  • Thanks so much, Tama. :)

    – Selkie

  • Cora Wandel
    Cora Wandelabout 5 years ago

  • Wow, thanks so much Cora :).

    – Selkie

  • E.R. Bazor
    E.R. Bazorabout 5 years ago

    A well deserved Feature!
    You have really captured what many live with.

  • Thank you, E.R.
    I really appreciate that!

    – Selkie

  • Gregory John O'Flaherty
    Gregory John O...about 5 years ago

    I can relate. Great verse, and shot

  • Thank you Gregory.

    – Selkie

  • madworld
    madworldabout 5 years ago

    Congrats on your feature, and very well deserved. Youre actually a minx, you draw me in every time with your images and your wiritng….Im MEANT to be working!!

  • ~Cracks whip
    Get back to work!
    :) Thanks, Mad…
    xo

    – Selkie

  • madworld
    madworldabout 5 years ago

    Now youre talking lol

  • Paul Quixote Alleyne
    Paul Quixote A...about 5 years ago

    excellent words and image.

  • Thank you, Paul!

    – Selkie

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