Waking Up Dreaming

Waking up Dreaming

I never did truly let go
When I left and walked away
That the only thing I now know
Though I knew I could not stay

You thought I loved another
You did not see it was to get back at you
Just a fuck not a lover
Unlike the one you had been going to

What a stupid way to end it
Each left alone within their thought
Throwing each other into the pit
Of the others with who we were both caught

I now know love does not truly die
But not how to open up and cry

I remember meeting the man you later married
We were still together back then
I wish I had recognised the look he carried
Sitting back and waiting until when

All was not jealousy and heated lust
That took us both our separate way
Lost in our own silence and lack of trust
Maybe had we talked we would be together today

I was angry when I heard you had a son
And even more so I was not told by you
When you knew I wanted more than one
And to know the love of your children too

Maybe that is why I have not been able to let go
And I do cry knowing now that I will never know.

4.36am 7th June 2011 Australian EST
Copyright Gregory John O’Flaherty

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I’ve been divorced 26 years, but woke tonight dreaming about me ex-wife. So I wrote this about it all. There is a lot I wish I remembered. To late now.

Comments

  • Arco Iris  R
    Arco Iris Rover 3 years ago

    Oh this is so beautifuly written but so sad. Sometimes we do walk away because there is lack of communication. I wish I could tell you that time will heal, but with this I’m not so sure.

  • Thanks Iris.. I think I am over it, I should be, it just frustrates me when I wake in the night dreaming of her …. xoxox

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • Sally Omar
    Sally Omarover 3 years ago

    This is beautiful and so poignant…if we could only have seen into the future….unfortunately time passes….
    and we all have regrets…this is definitely a FAV for me!!! xo

  • Thanks Sally xoxox

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • montdragon
    montdragonover 3 years ago

    kismet…fate…wait…serendipity…sometimes it is too late, and this is true somethings should never be, in a phrase, “let it be”…love is mercurial liquid shimmering mercury slick and smooth so pretty to look at…don’t touch (toxic if ingested less giggle in the wiggle, when what used to be fun, is drudgery of the dreaded deja vu) slippery while beading drops become pools of stagnant lethargy…odorous words when in doubt and suspicious out of sight you morph into…the detective…everything becomes an alibi…,“let it go” how easy to say and nearly impossible to do, when in a blink…one heart is severed into two, was the heart one beating heart of love…?…sigh…sigh, "what if " and you find out…it is unspeakable…silently falls the silence…it is dead.

    applause applause Boy-O…poignant…love for some is everything of their being and existence with that one, for others an alternative to not being lonely until they find another one and another one and another one…love is so subjective impossible to be objective…c’est la vie.

  • Thanks Monti !! As always your comments are full of truth and good advice !!!

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindover 3 years ago

    I’m so sorry for your broken heart and pain, in this complicated relationship. perhaps..it never would have worked. sometimes I believe there is a reason for everything…but we do not always see it. either way, this breaks my heart for you, it is an amazing emotional write. sending you much love and warm hugs my friend. ♥♥♥♥ XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXOX

  • Thanks Shar xoxox ….. I think I am over it all, I just hate waking in the middle of the night after dreaming of her …. subconscious still playing mind games with me

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • jedidiah morley
    jedidiah morleyover 3 years ago

    i just made a song out of this. recording is a bit crappy, but i’ll post a link once i can convert it for youtube (ie another 20 hours or so…. yawn!)

  • LOL…. Thanks Jedidiah !! I would love to hear it. I’ll go you halves in the fortune made from it !!

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • Initially NO
    Initially NOover 3 years ago

    Poetry is never straight forward anymore than relationships with people. You have a relationship with words that is inviting. Keep it up…

  • Thanks No. Enjoyed that, and thanks for the encouragement !!

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • jedidiah morley
    jedidiah morleyover 3 years ago

    I doubt it’ll win many Grammies, but here it is;
    (first half is closer to your words, 2nd half is inspired by, mix is horrible!)

  • I had a listen a few times earlier. Just try to push the vocal levels up a little and I think it would be great. Very impressed, and flattered !! Thanks Jed. I’ll go you halves

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • TheWanderingBoo
    TheWanderingBooover 3 years ago

    beautiful and emotive write

  • Thanks Boo. Appreciated as always !!!

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

  • jedidiah morley
    jedidiah morleyover 3 years ago

    hehehe…
    the mix is bad cos I was a bit drunk, and only did one take; consider it a demo? ;o))

  • :o) OK ….. back to work !!

    – Gregory John O'Flaherty

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