Sarah Bentvelzen

A flaming bottle
A flare of light paints
The sky then retires in
Some unfortunate’s home

To catch the fear
The lonesomeness
The idle hearts
Are broken in sorrow
Deepened wounds
With tearful
Dread
And torrents
Bled
Ill-fated
Ill-gotten
The love is spoiled

Now soaking i…

Lacerations
Insurmountable loss
Deeply embedded
Misery
Scores of emptiness
Black
Dreams washed
Away
Loves lost
Today
Broken record of my
Life’s manic misfortune
Institutionalised
M…

In the Midst of Love: The Beginning

Unto us, Love
A dying need
Filling all holes

In the Midst of Love: The Middle

Lonely hearts
And dreary nights
Crestfallen
Now pit of despair
…

Deep tears
The pain is beautiful
Droplets of blood
Caress the pool
Now stagnant

It stained everything it touched

Deathly screams and screams of death
Thoughts of suicide
Filling my head

Torrents of blood locked in
Everlasting torment
Filling my head

Deathly Green Fairies
In the midst of my mind
Vacant black eyes
Mocking my existence

Blackest night
Come, thick night
I wish to feed on your
Sinister thoughts
Take my gender from me
I wish to feel
Mortal sins
And be filled with
Direst cruelty

Dearest Oneiza
Thy heart belongs to you since
Your absence
Eternal unrest
Thoughts of dejection, torment and despair since
Your fatal entrance
Into the underworld

Radiant Medea
Has gi…

Eternal tempests
Rape of the mind
Eternal darkness
Penetrate the mind

Nothingness
Eternal emptiness

Dark pleasure,
Desires and damnation
Forlorn Valkyries and
Vagrant Grim Reapers …

Decaying of the mind
A nearing fate
The end is nigh
Eternal unrest
Mind unclear
Uncertain plans

Stern hands clenched
A beacon of hope
Deadly force
Unconscious
Unaware
No conscience…

Crestfallen heart
The raging sorrow
Two hearts alike
Strewn with grief
Severed love
Ended love
For one of them

Heed this warning
Death’s scorning hand
Her beauty unforeseen

Bleedi…

Deepest red
Staining my mind
Torn heart
Lay in my hands
Drowning in murderous thoughts

Unruly haunting, a strange love
Willful eyes mocking me
Surrogate of love
Incandescent love, scorning me!
New-found addiction, a new love!

Eager desire for hallucinations
Phantasmal cre…

No longer with odes of adore
But tempest fury evermore!

Tormented souls in each of us
Where do we stand amongst those loved?

Mentally and eternally scarred
Physically strained and longing for death
Everything dull
Tasks strenuous
Giving up, an easy fate

Death’s garden with her unyielding sorrow beckoned me
Her mephistophelian eyes lashed at me as I rejected the Siren’s call
The garden’s roseate lips quivered in anger
Then fed me mendacious …

Plucked unwillingly from a dear home, unripened
With tempests of fear, unholy ripened!
Undesired quiver of pleasure
There was no passion here, an unjust irony!

Replenishing insanity is the key.
It is merely a love that keeps me whole.