Time after time, I questioned my life,
How will I go? Is it worth the strife?
Will I rise or fall? Will it ever be right?
And in times of struggle, will I survive the fight?
I continue asking; for only God is my light.
I spent my years isolated, Couldn’t live with myself,
I was troubled as a young kid, my tears wouldn’t help,
Never happiness, just sad times and living a lie,
Barricaded behind four walls, am I destined to die?
I continue asking; for only God knows why?
I remember waking up, like I was ready for school,
By then, I was a young man losing my mind,
Not knowing what to expect from life at any time,
My depression was evident, is that a crime?
I continue asking; for only God knows what’s sublime.
Am an old man, And they telling me am gonna be well,
Psychologically, I dealt with demons talking in codes,
I was losing it; you know how it goes,
Hopefully, I get to meet sanity somewhere on this road,
I continue asking; for only God knows.
Ashes to ashes, that’s my life gone,
To leave behind such a feeble mind, forget it and pursue the real,
This is my goal, and with time………..,
This will be my eternal life, the way that I feel,
I continue asking; for only God what’s for real.