suicidal

I want to escape,
But I can’t.
There is no way out,
How can I go on?
I’m falling apart,
I’m going to die soon.

My breath enters so clearly and carelessly,
My hear pounds with the steady beat of life.
My body tries to hang on,
My brain just wants to leave.
I’m falling apart.

I can’t stay.
I have lost too much; I have nothing lest to lose.
Why won’t that steady pounding stop?
It’s like a drum which never stops.
The pain is unbearable,
The Pin is too emotional.
Why won’t it all just stop?

I lost her,
My fault,
My entire fault.
I shouldn’t have let it happen,
I should have paid attention,
My soul is no more
Since she went,
It is my entire fault.

They have tried,
I am gone.
There is nothing they can do,
I’m a train wreck gone wrong.
The wind in the trees tells me
There isn’t much time left for me.
The world is quivering for the impact.
I will not change the world
Just my world will be changed.

I am insignificant,
I am useless,
They will be happier without me,
Yet why do they help?

He tries so hard.
But I am filled with so much doubt,
I am keeping myself from dreaming.
I bleed and bleed,
But I seem to pull through.
I take the paracetamol,
My pounding drum fights on.

She tries so hard.
She talks to me.
He talks to me.
She hugs me and loves me
He reassures and helps me.

Why can’t I face life?
Why can’t I go on?
There only seems to be one solution for me…
To take away this unbearable pain.
The whole world seems to be resting on my shoulders.
He helps, she helps
But the weight will not lift.

What happens if they find out?
They will fill me with envy and doubt.
I love them so much,
But he and she seems easier to love and talk to.
He’s lovely and she’s great too.
But I still feel so blue
And I just don’t know what to do.

I’m scared,
I’m sinking,
I can’t love anything the same,
It is my entire fault.
I can’t live with this pain.
Take this away,
Take me away.
I’m cracking, I’m going.
Help me now before it’s too late.
I love everybody,
But I can’t let myself feel that love.
I’m cracking, I’m going.
I’m going, going going…
Gone.
And never returning.

suicidal

sally-ann rawlinson

Chester-le-street, United Kingdom

Artist's Description

i have been going through a rough patch, writing has helped me so much, don’t critasize these are my deep personal feelings. this is about the loss of my cat

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