gasping around in awe,
loving the sights i see,
rising from the subway,
but not truly seeing the wonders around me.
the empire state building is clouded by my own sorrows,
the world famous city dimmed by my past
realizing that i can never share these experiences with you.
full of family happiness and love,
all clouded by that one missing soul.
i couldn’t share my dinner with you.
i couldn’t snuggle up with you.
what is Christmas without you?
now taking my exams,
sure i can share the happiness of my expected results with my parents.
the one i wanted to share it with is you
but now you are gone,
and all i do is cry.
i just want to retreat to myself,
that loving that has been around for as long as i can remember
leave me alone.
can i just not join you?
please. Just let me