It seems that there is a weight about trying to fulfill inward goals. And more weight when deadlines are looming. And more weight when something goes horribly wrong. And more weight yet when hopes are lifted up only to fail miserably and come crashing down.
Sometimes the weight is just too much and you feel like some inquisition victim being immured (executed by being smashed under such great weight). That is when the flood gates open and close only with great difficulty.
Under such weight, we realize just how unable we are. Just how unfit we are. Just how much we can not do. Just how impossible it is to be what we set out for ourselves to be.
It is to such a time that the Lord Jesus addresses us personally: “Come to Me all who toil and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matt 11:28-30)
When we finally give in – we discover the meekness and the lowliness. The weight is eased. We discover His yoke – a yoke that had nothing to do with Himself, but everything to do with the Father. We, too, discover the rest of doing the Father’s will. We share in the autobiography of Paul in 2 Corinthians – and something of being conformed to Christ and something of transformation occurs.