Art work about my depression.
“I am truly left alone,
but somehow… just somehow
it feels like my loneliness is a victory
over the self-delusion of joy… and happiness.”
i’m depressed for few years because of people.
since i was young i felt lonliness . i never felt truely part of the society .
nowdays i have friends that i can laugh with and few of them truely care about me, but they honestly don’t know how to help me.
am i that complicated ? or maybe i am actually the problem ?
why the fuck i have to live for ? sometimes i’m feeling that i’m alive only because i’m afriad to die.
because the world would never be ideal as i wish it to be,
and there are too many problem i feel i cant handle (well , that what you feel after failing for years , even when theoretically you know what to do , you still feeling hopless) , instead of facing them i’m doing the most stupid thing – running away from them.
but thats only make the problem bigger and me to feel more depressed.
i should overcome them to feel strong , but to have the power overcome them i should feel strong frist , damn it .. one again i’m thinking too much instead of doing something.
so i’m the one to blame.
The work includes the chemical structures of Serotonin (on left) and Oxytocin (on right) .
lack of Serotonin causing depression , and Oxytocin is an hormone that responsible for our feelings when we feeling loved and accepted by other people , it also have an effect on our trust toward others.