i come up with a thought about my anxiety disorder ,
maybe im just blocking myself and making things worse ?
but im so afriad , im afriad to make this step , but then i cant enjoy life as they are.
im making excuses to friends when they ask me to hang out.
everyone having fun , but me , because I AM blocking myself .
have i become my worst emeny ?
the only way to get out of the fear cage ,its simply to do what i want despite my disoder,but the frist step is always the hardest.
i wish a had the courage to show everybody that i made the impossible.
sometimes i want to give up , but i know will never surrender.
The child in the picture is a symbol for me , hopless surrounded by barbed wires (symbol for my mental state) , the words on the wall can tell his past , his arms trying to reach the beautiful balloons it made (its a symbol for what my “anxiety journey” taught me) and he raising his head to look up for a better future.
i took the texture from here :