i used photoshop to make this photo
Recently my life changed because of a powerful panic attack i had.
it’s the worst experience ever ! i would never wish it upon anyone !!
it came without any reason and i felt like im losing control , have no where to run , and about to die (and of course i had many terrible physical symptoms).
nowdays im having a struggle getting back to normal life , and overcome unreasonable fears. it’s like the “fear system” in my brain been damaged and alerts without any reason.
i’m glad i have my family and friends support , due to my collapse i’ve developed closer relations with some of them and even my careless father finally showing me his love to me.
sometimes i’m feeling like im a burdensome , but i know that one day , when i’ll fully get back to myself , i’ll turn them big time !
i’m still very optimistic and positive.
This picture contain the structure of Clonazepam (one of commercial names is “clonex” which also mentioned there) , this is the medicine that gives me the ability to through the day . it gives me the confidence i’ve lost ,calms me down and making me forget all my physical and mental pain. but it lasting only for 4 hours or less.
it also contains an heart , which loves this medicine and even calling it “Magical” but the black stains on it showing both my suffering from the disorder itself and the worries of the addiction to “clonex” and it side effects.
the “I” which means me , is standing still and positive , behind me there is a peaceful background hoping for a good future.
THIS IS THE MOST MEANINGFUL & EMOITIONAL ART WORK I’VE EVER MADE.