1. I am acutely aware of my inability to relate to my portrait subject. There is a distance, a froideur (can’t find the word for it in English; call it a “coldness”, but that doesn’t cover the half of it) in my relation to vibrant, living human beings I have managed to capture. I do my best, but most of it is really the triumph of artifice over nature. I really hate that cliché – mostly because it’s so very true.
2. I am acutely aware of the irrelevance of padding out a deeply flawed portrait with words. This woman is a vibrant person who can’t deal with the difference between her self-image and how others – including the camera – see her (see below). I tried to emphasise the dichotomy of wild, gamine fierceness and vulnerability. This is the best my limited abilities can manage. I think she’s beautiful. I have tried to show her as I see her.
3. I am acutely aware of the risk I’m taking. The last time I shot her, she came back with glasses on and pulled my ear because she was really, but really unhappy with the result. Any comments that might prevent me from becoming permanently deaf would be very much appreciated.