Retroeight

Its so damn easy to be motivational to others.
To tell them what they want to hear, And what they need.
But it’s when I’m alone and without reason to be strong.
Thats when I can’t do it.
When I get washed away by tidal waves of emotions,
Such things rock me back and forth to a tear swept bed,
To headache mornings from sobbing,
See when I get alone, And my bones arent swelling with reason,
When I’m sitting in a dark room without my love,
Thats when I can’t do it.

See, It’s so damn easy to make others feel happy,
And it’s so damn easy to make everyone think you’re ok,
But in reality, I can’t swordfight swordless anymore.
I’m fucked, In all honesty
Im fucked.
You know all these words sound good, They look good and,
Either
Make people feel good, or really bad.
But to me, They are just a volcano erupting,
It’s out of me, But its still all inside, Still bubbling in a giant slag pot of heated anger.
And sometimes I feel like a supernoved star , But it goes away too soon,
And I never quite explode blinding everyting around me for cosmic miles,
I never quite get to destroying everything I know and experience,
You see I don’t get to start over, Because I can’t bring myself to that,
It’s an odd feeling, Rest assured of that.
It’s a bad feeling, That can’t rest, I assure you that.
See no one takes me seriously,
Unless I had a pistol in my hand with the barrel pointed towards;
Tomorrow.
The day that happens…You will no longer see me,
For I will see you in the next life.
But see I dont believe in that, So what good is it.
What good is any of it.
It doesn’t last, I take that back,
It only lasts as long as it takes to be destroyed.
Can love degrade so fast,
I know its gotta take alot more than four months to destory four years,
Or at least I hope it does,
Because you see its when Im alone without the one I love,
That’s when I can’t do it.