Reality….forever changing illusion,
floating on a cloud of nurture you believe.
Comfortable, safe, trusted,
then the cloud bursts , dreams precipitating,
flowing ………on fallen ground,
oh muddied vision, be cleansed and let me see once more.
A flood of reruns and what if’s,
a raft of shock drifting toward falls.
Abandoning ship I strike for shore,
struggling , against the overwhelming current.
But reaching safe ground ,
I take time to breathe.
Senses beached temporarily,
regaining strength…. clarity.
Great gasping lung fulls of recall,
but still its not enough.
To fill this void,
to ease the pain.
But the heart beats on,
with life and love and hope still pulsing.
Finding and subduing ego protagonists,
and the battle begins ….. again.
The lines are drawn ,the armour replaced,
no longer needing lightness to float,
I tread on solid ground.
Escaping the torrent , I walk steadily ,
cautiously rebuilding faith.
Looking within , for bouancy,
letting love bail against the tide.
And Im here , once again , striding forward
drying my tears , and trying my smile out for size.
Make it fit , oh please help me adjust,
this new garb will take a while.
To stop chaffing,
my new skin is yet to dry .
But soon I will fly again,
on the only true reality…….