redsirens

Happy wishes

call me,
I want a corner of your heart
I want you to miss me terribly, like I miss you

to please my need for your presence.
I take you in like a double edge sword

you brake my spirit over and over
and still I yearn for presence
you turn my surroundings into unfulfilled goals

and know I’m ashamed to say I love you
I’m ashamed to say I cared
I ashamed to feel for you

I’m insane
have lost my mind
I cannot remember who I was before,
this insanity grabbed controll of my senses
all I know is that when I opened up my eyes, all I saw was you.
I feel complet…

the memory of you swallows me in adeepness that is unmeasured.
It deepens in the mind, like you deepened in my thoughts.

I cannot hold you to this faded memory of us

I want to fall of the deep end
so that I can find myself in the mists of your memories

I am an untamed beast with a Thirst that cannot be quenched.
My cravings and desires are for the unreachable.

Unspoken words delivering untamed fantasies and wild daydreams.
they can con you into believing in irrationality leaving you open to exposure and ridicule.

I listened to their fading conversations
as they walked passed my window.

I can’t imagine being more naked in front a crowd.

But here I am, here I am.

I paint with open wounds and pray with swollen lips,
hoping to find some form of healing in my heart.

how to overcome the challenges that life throws at you.
are you supposed to duck and cover?
maybe on a more fateful time you are to let things glide by you,
can life be that? a series of enc…