Dumped.
oh god i will regret this in the morning
but this is now
and i feel like shit
dont you want to here about it?
Dumped. belongs to the following groups:
All Things Poetic, Artistic, Philosophical, Everyday Life, Lesbian and Bi-Women's Art, Melbourne & Victoria, Nerds Unite, Something To Say and The Word TreeSo, I got dumped.
And im here to tell you all about it
But I shall skip the boring postmortems
Explaining why and what and how many gallons of ice cream are currently being consumed.
Ive never like being dumped, never.
It’s happened to me three times, the first
Because I cheated (fair enough)
The second
They took it back after 20 minutes and begged for forgiveness
And now the third
Because I deserve better (ha!)
Anyway, it’s embarrassing because of so many trivial meaningless things
My myspace status says ‘in a relationship’
Everyone in school knew about us and constantly likes to ask “how’s what’s-her-face?”
I had just told my close friends I was finally in love
And to everyone else, ‘oh im very very happy with her. She’s great – perfect. I’m so frickin’ happy’
Being dumped
Oh yes, it’s depressing
Sad
Makes me want to CRY
Why?
Because my ipod is filled with love songs
My plans for the next couple of weeks all involve her
It’s not my fault apparently, but I can’t see how it is at all hers either
I know what I want to do right now
Wrap myself in a blanket
One made of corny American teen clichés
Bring on the family sized chocolate blocks
Put on ‘Tom Jones 20 great love songs’
Sob into my weights worth of pillows
Use a couple of million tissues
Shuffle in Ugg boots
Sport knotted hair
Wear mens sized jumpers
And my granny undies
I don’t know how im going to deal with it this time
The first time I was dumped
It seemed a bit unreal
And I got over it quickly
The second
Oh god it went on and on and on and we never got over each other and spent about a year in total falling in and out of love
Now, I just don’t know.
Ive been told I don’t like to let go of things
And I think it’s true
Friends, lovers, objects… Everything that ever meant something to me
I feel like im betraying the past, going back on everything that happened
Belittling it in a way
By just moving on, falling out love easily, ending bad friendships.. even throwing out junk!
Its probably not good for me
If I can never truly move on
Then I’m never going to get anywhere
I have all the answers to all my troubles
But I just got dumped and am distraught
And will have forgotten by the morning
The good news is
We are still going to be friends
That’s what i tried with Mr. 2 boyfriend
But he was different, sex obsessed.
She’s not
We get along because of our interests, and personalities etc.
Oh and theres that sexual chemistry
But unlike Mr. 2, we both know how to get over that
And focus on friendship
I know we will stay friends; we had a try at it today
She overcompensated a bit maybe
But i like when she’s happy and friendly anyway
Thank you for listening to my vent
You can comment and wish me the best
But a bear hug, kiss on the forehead
And a giant toblerone would also be welcome.
kossimarsalsa
oh dear, welcome to the club! i had a relationship end on my 6 weeks ago and i’m still not quite right.
i am like what you said your second break-up was like, never being sure whether i am over it or not, falling back on myself and changing what i thought. i don’t like it.
and this is my first, it was awful.
i liked your venting, i surely can relate.
come to my house, eat some bertie beetles (14 for $3) and you’ll feel better.
xxxxxxo
s-a
♥
Ash rebeltherace replied
awww poor girl
maybe it gets better as time goes on?
hmph i doubt that very much actually
i’ll be there in 2 minutes
with $12
(im prepared to eat alot lots of chocolate!)
xox
LostBoy
stonewall her, hold your head high and go buy a toblerone :)
Ash rebeltherace replied
haha good advice
JenniferB
Oh, you have at least another 40 years ahead of you to test out a new and improved version. ;-)
put on your biggest smile, sexiest undies and go grab the hottest lil hon you can find… revenge can be soooooooo sweet.
but yeah, I remember the days when things used to hurt… I think… nah. actually i don’t. :)
Ash rebeltherace replied
oh thats good
40 years more of being dumped!
thanks 4 the sweet advice Jennifer
your a wise one :p
Zolton
Mmmm… I’m not the best at moving on either. But I know this… you are beautiful, talented and smart. Always hold your head high, and yes, chocolate, and yes, sexy undies.
JenniferB
nope, 40 more years to learn how to make a better choice!!! ;-)
xox
jaycee
As you get older, you will appreciate that this was young love… it will hurt, but you will get past it and one day you will meet someone I be thankful that you didn’t stay with this person :)
Ash rebeltherace replied
hmm
that is good advice jaycee
sounds like something id say myself
just wish it were true
howls uncontrollably
jtaft
the real key to moving forward for the better is learning to love YOURSELF and take care of yourself. Because no woman can do that for you. As soon as you do, the universe will send its rewards.
Ash rebeltherace replied
thanks, thats actually really helpful!
Emma A
awwww you need a hug :[
what a lame excuse grrr at her.
i love you, no matter what anyone else does
to quote you
‘cheer up buttercup’ :]
loooveee you
xoxoxoxo.
Ash rebeltherace replied
your quoting me and everything
love you too
xoxox
kossimarsalsa
poor girl, yes we will all sit and eat chocolate and diss relationships, then break down and whine about how much we miss them.
yes, chocolate is a very good idea, i never went through a huge eating phase, but i think it is stilling coming in there somewhere!
xx
s-a
Ash rebeltherace replied
oh god keep those cliches coming
they are music to the ears = ]
see, i dont actually recall having the big eat phase thing either
but over the last year i put on a heap of weight
i was never skinny
but now i have curves = [
x
jaycee
Oh its true dear :) just give yourself time :)
kossimarsalsa
ah yes, i’ve done that like 3 times over the past 3 years, highschool put me over the edge i think. not good.
but none the less, you are very beautiful, despite what you think.
i went and got some of those bertie beetles and ate them, because almost everyone i know is having relationship (or lack there of) problems at the moment, it is rather bad.
there is a lot of sitting around at lunchtime, in secret places used for smoking by everyone else and gossiping by us, whining about the people we like and the fact that we like them.
it is screwed up, in the words of my friend:
‘why is life so hard?’
love youu,
xx
s-a ♥
Ash rebeltherace replied
wow.
ever had someone speak to you (well, type)
and known EXACTLY what they are saying
as if they are recalling your own life
.. thats what that was just like
goodnight
love you too
x
margpie
You know the most annoying thing about it, is that when that happens suddenly you notice more couples like they crawled out the woodwork, more love songs on the radio (in your case yr i-pod) and just about everything on the t.v is a giant love-fest! the consolation is, most of those couples are probably wishing they where with someone else, love songs are tediously boring most of the time and as for T.v? you can always press the off button…. You will find love again, people always do its the natural order of things, and the failed bits are normally life lessons to guide you to the person you should really be with. :)
flower68
(000000000000000000000000000000000000)i don’t know how to do a bear hug :
l) xoxoMMMMMWAH XX
I like Coldplay :
Ash rebeltherace replied
haha
what a random comment
thanks = ]
x
Bevsimages
Hugs to you ( )
Mwah kisses on the forehead xx
Now go eat some chocolate & icecream all in one dish & play “What’s new pussycat!” Tom Jones, & sing at the top of your voice! helps if you dance around the room naked lol ;D
It never goes away…just gets easier…eventually someone else will catch you eye & you will be happy again xxx ;P
Ash rebeltherace replied
awww thanks Bev
you are one sweet lady =D
kossimarsalsa
night sweetie, good luck with your equally trialing life!
talk to you later, and maybe more common ground can be reached. i’m glad you felt reached, i was feeling much the same when i read this for the first time.
xx
s-a ♥
Grace Rose
Sorry!
I had no idea!
(what a lame excuse)
=[
Well I love you even if she whom must not be named doesn’t
I think me and Emma will have to wrap you up like a canoli and eat you for dinner…
(that was supposed to mean your really sweet)
I love you Ash crash!
Call me when you get the chance!
I’m at home…
Grr
Looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooou
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Grace Rose
You know what…
I’ve thought about it,
and you know what we should do?
Turn her into a rabbit and shove her into a hat…
well…
I didn’t say it was a good idea…
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Luckyvegetable
sorry to hear, Ash. Ice cream is goodness for sure, but time and hugs help so much, too.
write it out as well, I always find that to be cathartic
hug
Ash rebeltherace replied
thanks, you’re my favourite vegetable i must admit = ]
SwaySlayer
Where do we send donations of Toblerone?
I feel you big time. I tried the friend thing with my ex before I realised it was an exercise in masochism. It only took me a year to have that epiphany. Yeesh.
Wonderful piece m’dear. I felt every word, heard every sniffle and am cheering you on your path to recovery.
Ash rebeltherace replied
aww thankyou your to kind
im recovering, slowly and painfuly