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The Worm Turns

Curse the mental torture!
Damn the very thought.
To hell with confusion.
With anguish, I am fraught.
Life of ups and downs,
settle on an even plain.
Be still my crazy mind
let me think again.
Where logic was abundant,
no rationale now there.
Reason now defies me,
alone in my dementia
This brain serves no purpose
in turmoil and confusion.
The worm eats from inside
spits out this wild delusion.
Ambitions, desires faded now.
Memories of past achievements
are replaced with apathy.
Dreams turned to disappointments.
The worm ! More pills! More sleep
Here in my bed I hide.
No concept of reality
but life goes on outside.
Lulled into an uneasy calm, then
catapulted into surrealism.
Lie still, let the world go by
and wait for the cataclysm

© RebeccaWeston 2009

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Taken from a collection that I call C’est la vie! which I wrote many years ago
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“The worm ! More pills! More sleep”

Artwork Jagged Little Pill
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Tags

poem, crazy, torture, mind, worm, anxiety, madness, insanity, mental, ftsthree

Most of my writing is auto-biographical.
I wrote to rid myself of the ‘rubbish’ in my life, I found it extremely cathartic. I called these early pieces “C’est le Vie!”
For many years I hid them away until a dear friend on RB convinced me to publish them here – for that I will always be so grateful.

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Comments

  • smeg
    smegover 5 years ago

    this runs fast and suits the meaning, great theme, I can relate.

  • I think alot of people have been there or nearly there at least once in their lives. Thank you.

    – RebeccaWeston

  • dogfish
    dogfishover 5 years ago

    stumbling over my own words to comment, as the worm has indeed turned, tis a black, black time you find whilst the worm turns, it feeds on your very soul as it fattens itself with your strength, and pray you do sleep while the world turns!

    brilliant writing! need I say more?

  • Every word you say is of great value to me – always. Thank you

    – RebeccaWeston

  • solareclips~Julie  Alexander
    solareclips~Ju...over 5 years ago

  • Thank you very, very much – it’s such an honour XX

    – RebeccaWeston

  • lacewren
    lacewrenabout 5 years ago

    reason defies you? would you rather reason define you? paraphrase descarte, " i stink therefore i am". re-enchantment needed, apply in person. fugue-states interrupted by suicide schemata, finger-stabbing-the-air rants to mirrors guilty/shamed, i know these. had to give up, self-immolation ran outta gas. hope peace for you. bless and keep you, sistercousin.

  • Thanks

    – RebeccaWeston

  • JonoCarrick
    JonoCarrickabout 5 years ago

    Your writing is so powerful. This one speaks to me! Sent shivers down my already shivery spine (its minus 2 here tonight..lol)

  • Aww, thanks babe. Here’s a [[hug]] to warm you up XX
    Becca

    – RebeccaWeston

  • ricardo perez jr
    ricardo perez jrabout 5 years ago

    for real ,i feel yu

  • wow – thanks – mission accomplished !! XX
    Becca

    – RebeccaWeston

  • oneperfectkiss
    oneperfectkissabout 5 years ago

    and I fell ya too Becca. oh i know all of this so well!! xxxx

  • {{HUG}} I’m glad we are both in a safe place just now, tho’ XX Becca

    – RebeccaWeston

  • David A. Everitt (aka silverstrummer)
    David A. Everi...about 5 years ago

    “The Worm Turns – Curse the mental Torture” There are so many people who suffer this kind of torture if only they could read your words so powerfully true! Brilliantly written again. – David

  • Wow – Thank you David, reading your comments has given me goosebumps – I feel so honoured to know someone as special as you {hug} XX
    btw – hope the holiday is going ok X
    Becca

    – RebeccaWeston

  • Arco Iris  R
    Arco Iris Rabout 5 years ago

    You have described what sometimes goes inside of me. Captured my raw emotions so well. I posted one not too long ago “Like the Windvanes I Wait for The Signs of the Winds.” It speaks of the storms that rage within. Love your poem. Love all of them.

  • Thanks Iris. I have read your wonderful poem. We know the same demon by his first name, it appears {hug} XX
    Becca

    – RebeccaWeston

  • Arco Iris  R
    Arco Iris Rabout 5 years ago

    By reading a lot of our RB friends’s work, I think a lot of us have a worm or a storm within. And I think we all know the demon by his first name. Sometimes I think that that is what makes us writers or artists. and yes, huggggs. Rebecca Iris

  • Hugs and love to you – Thank you for your wonderful compliment on “Like the Windvanes I Wait for The Signs of the Winds” – I appreciate your words of encouragement so very much, Iris. XX
    Becca

    – RebeccaWeston

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