Pas Seul

The spotlight is harsh sunshine on my skin
as I stand, encased in satin, silk and tulle.
My shoes, well-rosined, laced around my ankles,
glisten with the burgundy beauty of blood.
My hair, wrapped sleekly round my skull,
adorned with rubies the shade of pigeon’s blood,
shines like a sterling silver helmet.
I bend, all submissive grace, to an invisible partner,
and, standing,
parting lips glacéed with the blood of cherries,
raise my arms and cry to heaven,
“I’m here! You called; I came. You promised. Where is he?”
No answer comes.
So, sur les pointes, arms crossed to keep my balance,
spinning round and round and round,
my eyes bleed tears as I survey the blackness
beyond the spotlight.
And, although your presence permeates
the silence of the shadows
I see nothing.
But you, cat’s eyes hidden ‘neath a mask, can see me,
I know,
as I dance, alone, for you.

© 2012 RC deWinter

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I have been a photographer for over 25 years, using both traditional and digital SLR equipment, with pictures published in print as well as in online publications and galleries. The digitally-composed works are created using a variety of software. If you enjoy my work, please spread the word, and thank you for stopping by.

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  • Jenifer DeBellis
    Jenifer DeBellisalmost 2 years ago

    Click on the banner to go straight to the permanent feature gallery.

    Anna, Sybille and Jenifer xox

  • Always honoured, thank you! Just got back from vacation and found this, lovely!

    – RC deWinter

  • Sherri     Nicholas
    Sherri Nic...almost 2 years ago

    Congratulations on your pink panther RC and you were on the front page, beautiful picture, hope you are doing welll my friend!!

  • Many thanks, Sherri dear! Bright blessings to you.

    – RC deWinter

  • tori yule
    tori yulealmost 2 years ago

    “Congratulations on your feature”:
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    July 2012

  • Many thanks for this lovely coming home after vacation surprise, Tori, honored!

    – RC deWinter

  • su2anne
    su2annealmost 2 years ago

    an evocative write!
    congratulations Pas
    I took this image and wrote this jot about a year ago…
    perhpas you might enjoy…
    x suzanne:))

  • Thank you! I will certainly check your work soon.

    – RC deWinter

  • RosaCobos
    RosaCobosalmost 2 years ago

    So sad…..terribly sad, not becasue one gets ready for dance and may have no audience, but for the fact that one does not have a partner. Not the one needs..holding, lifting , sensing the rythm, making oneself fly or slee on a dream of music and love. I have enjoued so much the descripñtion, the moond, the “pathos”..!!

  • I always appreciate your thoughtful insights, Rosa, many thanks.

    – RC deWinter

  • Patito49
    Patito49almost 2 years ago

    Hmm, we most patiently wait for the music to start again…

  • As it always does…

    – RC deWinter

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