In the pantheon of cards
I am the Queen of Swords:
intelligent, piercing the veil of mysteries,
learner of lessons taught by harsh masters;
skeptical, armored, not easily gamed,
whose heart underneath beats a passionate red.
These days, however, theTwo of Pentacles,
turned upside down, unbalanced,
lies like a heavy caul of chaos on my life.
Moods and perceptions seesaw,
cascading wildly back and forth,
and I’ve lost the reins:
up and down, down and up again I fly
in the endless loop of the lemniscate.
I am the captive of reason, then of emotion,
torn between the rational and the evincible.
Not sleeping only adds to my distress.
I am daily torn apart.
To which do I listen – my brain or my heart?
© 2013 RC deWinter ~ All Rights Reserved
The chaos of imbalance.