© 2009 RC deWinter ~ All Rights Reserved

Again and Again

The morning’s midnight blue –
thick and suffocating,
velvety but too much so.
I am overmastered by the blueness
and smothered in the folds of disappointment once again.
You’d think by now I’d have learned to court no expectations,
but I keep refilling my flimsy basket with the hopes of foolish girlhood.
Perhaps one of these days I’ll see the bloodred roses in their reality,
wilted, scent long faded, leaves and stems as brown as mud,
instead of clothing them in verdant visions destined to be shattered.
Each wall I hit leaves one more bruise on skin not so resilient,
I’m aging not so gracefully these days, all to my sorrow.
I thought I could sustain that smile I pasted on securely,
determined not to wither even when the wind turned frigid.
But oh! I am a failure,
I can’t do it,
not this morning –
not this midnightstonecold morning could I smile to save my soul.

© 2010 Regina Coeli deWinter

Digital grunge-textured oil painting based on my experiences with love and marriage.






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abandonment, grunge, heart, heartache, lightning, loss, marriage, pain, postmark, stitches

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Comments

  • Karri Klawiter
    Karri Klawiterover 5 years ago

    Beautiful!

  • Thank you for your kind comment, Karri.

    – RC deWinter

  • boswell20
    boswell20over 4 years ago

    beautifully cryptic….and different…I LIKE!! :) great job!

  • Thanks so much, JaNae!

    – RC deWinter

  • artisandelimage
    artisandelimageover 4 years ago

  • I wish it hadn’t been inspired by reality…thank you, francis.

    – RC deWinter

  • Wendi Donaldson
    Wendi Donaldsonabout 4 years ago

    Beautiful work….and poignant emotional writing.

  • Thank you for looking and your lovely comment, Wendi.

    – RC deWinter

  • paintingsheep
    paintingsheepabout 4 years ago

    Congratulations on your Challenge Win!! Wonderful entry!! Gena

  • Many thanks, so appreciated! :-)

    – RC deWinter

  • ArtistJD
    ArtistJDalmost 4 years ago

    Congratulations on your Challenge Win! "Writing With Emotions! -Divorce and A New Start / Your Host are now back from vacation!!!!! Fantastic Win!

    Now you’ve got style!

  • Much appreciated, thank you and all group members!

    – RC deWinter

  • strawberries
    strawberriesalmost 3 years ago

  • Many thanks for the honor :-)

    – RC deWinter

  • Rene Hales
    Rene Halesalmost 3 years ago

  • Merci!

    – RC deWinter

  • Kanages Ramesh
    Kanages Rameshalmost 3 years ago

  • Thank you, Mr. Frog :-) An honor.

    – RC deWinter

  • Kanages Ramesh
    Kanages Rameshalmost 3 years ago

    You may join me in congratulating the artists Here

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