Rick Williams

My Eskimo, The Lie, The Pain, The Love

It started with a white lie, but I still loved you!
After the second lie, you hurt me but I still loved you!
With trust tarnished the third and fourth lie, your deception shattered my heart into a million pieces. A hurt I have never felt before, a physical and mental pain so strong because my love and feelings for you are so strong.
How could you carry on these lies, whilst looking into my eyes?
You say you love me, but act as you are beyond me.
You think you can use me and still love me?
Should this Igloo still keep my Eskimo warm?
Would I be stupid to carry on? With my feelings so strong..
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I Love my Eskimo & I’m sure he loves me

From the start I questioned, Are you sure this is what you want? Do you want to experience the single life more? No I love you and want to have a new life with you. We engage our first hurdle in which an opportunity is given and the questioned asked again with the answer “I love you and want to be with you” I’m told he loves me and it’s true but in the blink of an eye he says, I’m not sure I’m in love with you, I think I need more time, I’m so confused. I always rush my decisions. Are we more just like mates?
My love for him so strong what am I to do? Now who is really confused! With so many great memories it hurts me so much, on one hand my anger just wants to let you go and the other to hold onto you because my feelings are so strong and we have a special bond.
We have enjoyed our time together so much, your happiness filled my heart. When I would come home and your are talking a million miles an hour because you are so happy, when you talk to your family about the things we have got up to and places we have been with such excitement. When I stare into your beautiful blue eyes so deeply with love making you blush. When you are so happy at work and others ask why and you replied “Because of my baby” When we have our tears of laughter moments sitting on the lounge together. We have shared our deepest secrets. With so much ahead of us how can these feelings just disappear?
I still cherish the thoughts of our grand travelling plans and the one I will hold onto forever is the thoughts of you taking me to Darwin and sharing your favourite locations and your childhood memories with me. The thought of you telling me about the places you wanted to take me still clear in my head.
With tears of emotions my Eskimo I love you. I love every little thing about you. Please don’t throw what we have away. What we have is more than just friends or mates. It is love! you have shown me this. I love you my Eskimo and this Igloo wants to keep your warm forever.

Lots of love
Your Igloo
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This Igloo has melted!

I have loved my Eskimo with all my heart and gave up everything for you.
Thinking that you are worthy of my love, thinking that you will always be true…
You did show me love but like a light bulb switching off it was lost.
I have trusted you a lot and you broke my trust.
This Igloo has melted with no Eskimo to keep warm. With no Eskimo to love and look after.
My broken heart will heal I know, it will take a long time but it will go, it will leave a scar so deep, it will remind me of you, but my forgiveness is there and that is because I loved you…
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Relisted 28.09.2009
To this day and forever I will always love you. In my heart you will be to the day I die.