Your Head In My Hands

I’ll never forget
Holding you’re head in my hands those final moments
Of your young
Precious life.

We had so many things ahead of us. . .
So many things I wanted to show you.
So many places I wanted to take you.

I know everything happens for a reason.
But why did it have you be you?

I need you like I need air to breathe.
Like I need my next heartbeat.

A child you were.
You were.
And now you’re in the wind.
And the sky.
And the ground.

But one place you’ll never die
Is in my heart.

Words cannot express
How broken I am.
How much I miss you.
Need you.
Love you.

You were my baby.
My world.
My dreams.

You were my everything.
My future.
My guiding light and my beartbeat.

And now you’re gone.
Like a flame smothered.
Like a flower crushed.

You never had the chance to show everyone else what I saw everytime I looked into your big, expressive brown eyes.

We never had the chance to show everyone that they were wrong.
About you.
About me.
About us.

I told them that they’d see.
See what they missed out on.
And I think they did.
But no one will ever know.
Truely know how special you were.
They never saw us play.
Never saw us love each other like we did.
They’ll never know.

But you weren’t alone.
Just like I know I won’t be.
I know that you’ll be with me forever.
Be my baby forever.
Be mine forever.

I’ll never forget your smell.
Your eyes.
The way you felt under my hands.
They way you talked.
They way you played.
The way you lived.

I’ll never forget the way you searched for me.
And found me.
The true me.

The way we explored and lived together as one.
The way we became one.

I’ll never forget the way your head felt in my lap.
In my hands.
The way your neck
Face and body felt under my hands as I told you that everything will be ok.
I’ll never forget your shaking.
Breaking
And breathing felt in those final moments.
As I whispered “I love you”
As you took those last breathes in my world.
As the darkness seemed to evelope us.
As I was left alone.
As you travelled on into the next world…
Scared.

But I know you’re happy now.
And I know that one day..
We’ll be together again.
But Until then…
I’m broken.
And without you.
And thats what hurts the most.
Never knowing
What could have been
If you hadn’t left me last night.

This regret is pointless
I know,
But I can’t help but feel
That I could have done more.
More to let you know that everything was gunna be okay.
That I would be okay once you left.
But I’m not.
I never knew how much I needed you until now.
Now that you’re gone
I know.

I know that I wish your head was still in my hands.
And I know that I’ll never be the same.
I miss you.
I love you.
And I can’t wait to see you again.
So that we can play again.
Explore again.
Live together agian
As one.

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