49 VOLUMES OF SUICIDE

49 volumes of suicide
each one a reason to die
a reason to cry
my obsession with depression
a reason why
it’s killing me
inside my own memories
a compilation of lies, and misery
decipher the volumes
show no sympathy
as the knife slices
49 volumes of suicide
where the blood flows like a tide
pouring my life on the floor
i can’t take it no more
as my veins empty
paramedics too late to rescue me
the pain turns into serenity
it getting cold inside
49 volumes of suicide
where now i can see the light
darkness no longer resembles night
my body becomes stigmata
for this world i’m a matyr
my soul clings to humanity
why i ask does it cling to insanity?
which picks up pen, and paper writes
49 volumes of suicide
spinning AROUND IN MY HEAD
A SONG ASKING GOD WHY I’M NOT DEAD
I guess i never heard a word he said
49 volumes of suicide
now turns to poison
why this method have i chosen
a death so swift
i’ll die like it was a gift
to heaven or hell
where i’ll land it’s hard to tell
deep inside
49 volumes of suicide
now i don’t know if i hear
angels or demons
i’m afraid of giving up on believing
so who am i decieving?
i cry please
but no one is around to hear my pleas
i look for a place to run and hide
i only find
49 volumes of suicide

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I’M VERY SERIOUS ABOUT LIFE AS YOU WILL SEE. A AIDS, HOMELESS, HUMAN RIGHTS,AND CIVIL RIGHTS ACTIVIST FIGHTING FOR WHAT’S RIGHT. SO MANY PEOPLE ARE TRAPPED IN THEIR OWN BELIEFS THINKING THE WORLD ROTATES AROUND THEM, AND SURPRISE, SURPRISE IT DOESN’T

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  • mychaelalchemy
    mychaelalchemyabout 6 years ago

    I’m a coward about commiting suicide, but I do think about it alot..my own depression has gotten to a point where I can no longer help myself with doing important things, like making money to live…I can only offer my understanding…if one thing this is, it is well-crafted writing

  • KEITH  R. WILLIAMS
    KEITH R. WILL...about 6 years ago

    thanks it’s about exactly that but realizing after you make the mistake of killing yourself, it was all for nothing

  • mychaelalchemy
    mychaelalchemyabout 6 years ago

    true, it makes little difference…typically, people do it for the loss of a loved one or some other dramatic purpose, losing a job…
    those at the job would barely notice and the one that left would not shoulder themselves as the cause…anyone commiting suicide is deranged by most standards, so they say….

  • KEITH  R. WILLIAMS
    KEITH R. WILL...about 6 years ago

    sometimes i believe the pressure becomes to much to bear, and they take the easy way out. i’ve thought that way myself, and believe me millions have too especially when things go drastically wrong. There’s a demonic voice crying do it, and a angelic voice saying hell no!!!

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