I hesitate..savoring my fear
Merging with motion
Like a shooting star
I gallop across reality
On a wild trajectory
Searching for possibilities
Willing to accept any role
That suits the circumstances
Lions and Zebras
Must drink together
Before the chase begins
What difference does it make
Whose mind I inhabit?
A common well of creation
Is all there is
Absolute darkness is where I go
When I am desperate for the light
Sometimes I want blood and struggle
Pulsating…trembling flesh between my teeth
Relinquishing their strength to my hunger
Exhilarating molecules of lust and terror
Keep me satiated with dreams of power
Sometimes I run as fast as I can
Knowing that I am caught
And then I cry and surrender
Spilling my life into the life of another
The only way I have to become One
No longer one of many
How do I find the door that lets
Me out of being alone?
How can I awaken now…within you
To find that neither of us exists outside
Of our blind desire to merge with another?
How do I master the nothingness I am made of?
This voiceless identity…the only reality that
Is worth anything…and everything…
The only memory I cannot retrieve even
As it haunts and eludes me…
Just as I create myself from it?
Ah, my Love
Let me break through my doubts
And give you what I hold most precious
My willingness to find you inside me
Victims if the same ambition
We hide our dreams in secret drawers
So that we can spend one moment
Inside another’s heart
But who am I, beg you?
Reveal to me if you can
Through your delicious love
Who am I, I ask you?
When all that is left of me
Is a tiny speck of light
Dancing inside your eyes?