Dust Bunnies
Why do they name something so irritatingly disgusting as a “dust bunny” after a cute forest creature? Sometimes our language slang is stunningly stupid to me. :) Or brilliant, who am I to say?
Recovering addicts (or non-recovering addicts) have a life riddled with guilt.
Guilt over their choices.
Guilt over their mistakes.
Guilt over their heartaches, the heartaches they have caused others and the lives (including their own) that they may have destroyed.
Guilt.
The silent forming, ever present dust bunny of addiction.
I have a wide and far reaching broom.
I intend to use it.
Dust Bunnies belongs to the following groups:
All Things Poetic, Artistic, PhilosophicalYou can’t rip this guilt from me
For each thread is securely sewn
Into the day that I lived it
And those days remain
As dusty reminders
Without warning
They become piles
that slip quietly under the couch.
I tell myself to stay still
Yet, I slip over
On my knees
To peer underneath
And there I remain
For memories would have brought me here
Had I been standing
Niki Renee
wonderfully written
Love it!
Pinkpapayabec
Thank you much!
DiEtte Henderson
Stop it already, you made me cry! Gripping!
Pinkpapayabec replied
You relate…yes?
Pinkpapayabec
Why thank you there~!
greeneyedlady
i’m not sure which was more gripping, the poem or its description….food for thought, thank you for sharing this!
Pinkpapayabec replied
Thank you so much greeneyedlady! I appreciate your comments!
mtda
Wow… great writing (including the description) as a recovering addict with a bit of clean time I find my guilt to be one of the most exceptionally powerful negative forces I struggle with. My “broom” usually consists of acceptance, that if I had not done the horrible things that I did then I never would have realized what a monster I had become, I never would have wanted to change, and I would not be where I am today. And I like where I am today. Powerful writing, I really enjoyed reading this.
Pinkpapayabec replied
Thank you so much! That means a LOT coming from such a talented writer as yourself! Yes, the guilt lingers (often silent now with 3 years of sobriety) but when it awakens periodically it does so with incredible clarity. It is also one of my hardest ongoing struggles. I learned that I can let it go, but alas…let go of me, it does not.
Thank you again!