Jo O'Brien

and I hated her
and how she was a better person than me
sometimes it’s too late to learn

I will not wait at the window for my father
I will not wait in the kitchen for my lover

Hope
Guilt
Confusion
Self Hatred
Hatred
Negotiation
Realisation
Stubbornness
Regret
Hope

It never ends

Only yesterday I was talking about wanting a big family
About how I’d keep going until my body gave up
I never thought it would give up before I started