…when men begin to seriously age they know it all-too-well. Their mortality bombs them each time they rise from a chair to notice that their first few steps are slow with a bit of an ache.
…something gnaws at the corners of their mind each time they see the reflection of their grandfather chasing them from the mirror, hinting how ridiculous it seems to continue pursuing the dreams they’ve had all their lives (some of which are agonizingly private, yet perhaps the prime motivators behind all they’ve become).
…the dreams
…how beautiful and noble they seemed in his youthful head
…aging men turn their minds to the things they could have accomplished if they hadn’t been such hard-driven dreamers, such egotistical believers in their own strength to accomplish
…they shrink in embarrassment as they recall all they’ve ignored while pursuing their own preferences
…they feel the humiliation even more deeply as they remember all that has chosen to pass them by, especially as they begin to fully understand the legitimacy of why they were overlooked or discarded
…they begin to question their own wisdom and intelligence that they once believed in so strongly; bury their head in their hands and squeeze when it hits them that their efforts to bring a better life to the ones they’ve loved most may well have damaged them instead. They cringe, squeeze harder at their skull
…yet they cannot bring themselves to regret their dreams; they give full creedence to the beauty of their dreams. They realize that resignation to mediocrity is such a cowardly way to live; which is why they dreamed. They are both proud of themselves for having the courage to dream, and ashamed of themselves when they realize that their best efforts could not bring the dreams to fruition
…sometimes, in the midst of a dark night as the ageless moon and stars blink their blessings on the Autumn of the Earth, men in quiet places allow themselves to feel the full force of every emotion, and just like women and children they feel tears rising to the surface, and for once let them fall
…it is in these moments that the heart of Adam reaches most fervently for the hand of Eve

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  • Laurie Search
    Laurie Searchalmost 3 years ago

    Phil… beautifully written…so very moving…Never stop dreaming!!!! No regrets!!! xoxo

  • Guendalyn
    Guendalynalmost 3 years ago


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    Tender, moving, and beautifully written !

  • sarnia2
    sarnia2almost 3 years ago

    This is absolutely wonderful and right from the heart, I feel. Men just like women have these more mature moments and I am glad you have written about it.

  • evon ski
    evon skialmost 3 years ago

    oh Phillip -this is so wonderfully expressed. It moved me to tears, my mind and spirit say Grace Grace Grace. and in the moments of recognition of a lack and arid places of Man’s heart . . yes I believe the hand of God reaches through the hand of Eve (and hopefully this time does not recieve an apple). Your son is lucky to have a faher with this wisdom.

  • Donna19
    Donna19almost 3 years ago

    Just..Wow. This is intense and very beautiful. Too actually write it down for others to view is like opening up the very soul. Brave and emotions I am sure other men have felt. I find this a courageous write Phillip.

  • linaji
    linajialmost 3 years ago

    It always fascinates me this amazement at men crying…. I don’t know but throughout my life a ‘good cry’ is just that …good.
    I like how you have associated adam in tears needing his eve… in times when we grow so fast, it is nice to have someone to hold hands with,
    enjoyed this much Phillip

  • AnLile
    AnLilealmost 3 years ago

    A wonderful heart-write Phillip. xox

  • Dara Hurt
    Dara Hurtalmost 3 years ago

    Written from your soul, the very tenderest of human-ness. In embracing our vulnerability, we grow stronger..and wiser…Beautifully beautifully written!

  • Redviolin
    Redviolinalmost 3 years ago

    Absolutely stunning…so beautiful

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