Going round and round in circles trying to find an answer to life.. Trying to find a slither of hope in this unforgiving world.
Back and forth to doctors, hospitals and counselling, all to find out no-one knows What’s wrong. Having medication thrown at me left and right.
Two years of this anxiety, the extreme lows and manic highs, the pain of losing family and friends when you need them the most, the pain of self hatred.
These tears don’t stay away for long…
These highs are short lived…
How long before I get an answer??
How long till I feel normal (whatever normal is) ??
People say life is too short but in my eyes it’s too long!!!!
This was originally a journal post but have changed into writing.
April 9th 2011