DATE: Wed 27th March 2013 05:34 AM GMT
MEDIUM: A5 sketchbook/Blue biro pen
DESCRIPTION: Lying down flat on my back in bed; with my head being, carefully, propped up by 2 comfy pillows; I placed a small rectangular 6 × 4 inch mirror to go rest on top of my stomach/and, held it there with two bent up knees; then, very slowly started to draw…; and, this was the end result.
Left ear far too big; nose holes far too dark; very little definition in the clothes; work still far too 2D flat/and, NOT enough 3D sense; problems dealing with proper proportions…staring eyes not truly wide enough/and, too, getting perspective right…whenever a person is being seen lying down, their facial flesh tends to automatically sink downwards, and/or, expand out, according to the strict rules of gravity; well, I missed all of that completely…-(draw exactly what it is you SEE…/and, NOT merely what you ‘think’ you see…?!)-, etc.
My attempts to draw self-portraits, effectively; is proving to be really hard/quite honestly, next to impossible, in fact; maybe, I just don’t have enough self-discipline to be able to see/draw, correctly? In the which case, I might as well try drawing myself purely from out of my own imagination, alone; and, without ever actually needing to go look into any mirror…!
What I liked most about it was it has an ‘innocent, sweet, soft, boyish’ kind of quality; which is exactly how I tend to see myself being deep down inside. However, is it a realistic looking self-portrait of me at my current ‘worn out’ age of 49+/and, nearly 50, in only just one months time? No! Instead, it appears to me to be far more highly imaginative; than, it ever does look ‘real’.
When I see the kinds of ’true to life’ self-portraiture that others can do…; and, I compare this with my own vastly inferior artwork…; then, frankly, all I can think of is why in the hell do I even bother for?! But, it’s very important to NOT quit, yet; just keep on ‘trying’, instead…; much preferring to, quite blindly, BELIEVE that this type of drawing exercise will eventually work for me, one day, I’m sure…??? ;-)