OwlMountain

(edited and adopted from my personal journal)

Is my catharsis over yet? Something is pent-up in me, some force that is trying and looking for a way to express itself. Is it an artist ? ...am I an artist ? ... or, in fact, those are two different personalities, me and artist ?

No, I AM and artist !!
My artistic expression is photography and writing. Our whole culture is about competing, being compared to others, being better than others, making more money, struggling to always do better, faster, more… and if not, you’re somehow less… WHY? ...that only brings frustration.

I have decided that I don’t need to be embarrassed about the artistic quality of my photograph anymore, even if there is none … so what, I say ! The process of creating that photograph itself was and art. I could be the worst artist in the world according the rules of today, but I am one in my own eyes and that’s enough for me because… it is just enough for me.

I don’t need to compare myself to any other artist because it is pointless. I can only feel inspiration and genuine admiration for the beauty of others’ work. The bitterness and jealousy (...why am I not so talented as he or she is?...) and feelings of inferiority are poisonous. So what if I am not Ansel Adams or Victor Hugo, but I am Roman and that’s great too!!

I am me and I welcome my catharsis.