I sat in my chair a few minutes ago
and I heard your whispering voice,
Only I heard you in this dark room
because there is no other choice.
Gone you have been for a little over a year
and I still feel so very sad,
Because I cannot hold you tonight or ever more
since I am lonely and mad.
These watery eyes can still see
a blurry figure of who you once were,
Wish I could have convinced you
that there never was a she, or a her.
How can I stop these rain drops
that keep soaking my cheeks everyday?
Haven’t found a good reason
since my friends are gone even as I pray.
I’m being a good person
in spite of what people think of whom I’ve become,
I’ve put up with all of the insults
even though there are plenty from some.
There can never be any peace in me
until someone really means what they say,
Your voice was my only hope to survive
and my clouds have turned darker than just gray.
I don’t need any electricity for lights
because it’s at night when I miss you so much,
During the day I work hard as I labor doing activities
to stay busy and healthy as such.
My heart yearns for comfort from a friend
that can accept me for whom I’ve become to this day,
Please help me find that other person that is real
and has a heart and mind that is willing to stay.
Lost tears and hope have passed me by
and I have only myself to blame,
Because I have carried your beautiful memory
in my heart without the guilt of being ashamed.
I know you are an angel up high in heaven
looking down to see if I can be worthy of this deed,
Listen to my heart as it bleeds for your help
and bring me this friend that I so much need.