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My Life Is A Mess

My Life Is A Mess

I’ve been secretly searching for so many years,
It’s caused me to sweat and I’ve cried a million tears.
My eyes have lost sleep and red have turned my ears,
The blood in my veins has heated as I have shaken-ed in fear.

Nobody has seen me out when I have traveled late at night,
I steer away from people on the street to escape seen by the light.
My presence has been heard, yet I’ve avoided my body from their sight,
Inside my head my conscious tells me to continue because to find it is to do right.

Sometimes it worries me that maybe its not out there to find,
People that tell me that I should not give up are perhaps just being kind.
When I get home empty handed I think that maybe I have really lost my mind,
Denial enters my brain and the fear that I have not seen it makes feel I am blind.

I keep telling myself that maybe tomorrow I shall have more success,
And when I wake up in the morning after loosing sleep I feel like I need to rest.
When I get to work they stare at me as I go in because of how I am dressed,
And I know that if I don’t find it very soon I will have turned my life into a mess.

Copyright © Oscarelizondo Monday February 16, 2010 12:22 AM

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Sometimes we search for something that we are not so sure if we will find it, and then when we do find it, we are not so sure it was what we were looking for. Have you ever felt that way? Well, I have and thank you for reading this.


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  • Zolton
    Zoltonover 4 years ago

    Word! I have had more of this than the other. But it makes the other seem so great when I do have it. I keep telling myself that maybe tomorrow I shall have more success…

  • Yeap, we keep hoping to find something of value for our hearts to hold on to, and I guess we will continue looking until maybe we are too old to understand what we were doing anyway. LOL Thanks for sharing your views, always interesting tor read.

    – oscarelizondo

  • jomash
    jomashover 4 years ago

    Brilliant rythem, love this, xxx sorry i cant spell rythem !!

  • What your heart speaks is brilliant, no need to worry about spelling. Write what your heart wants to say, enjoy who you are and continue with comments and your own writings, we love you anyways. Thanks for stopping by and leaving a message, enjoy your own ways, I do too.

    – oscarelizondo

  • BCallahan
    BCallahanover 4 years ago

    what a great piece of writing, Oscar! I am always amazed at how you can put your thoughts into words. this reminded of when i was a child. I never looked at where i was going… my eyes were always glued to the ground, looking for a treasure, i just knew someone had dropped something and i would be the one to find it…and either it would be mine, or i would get a huge reward for returning it to the owner. Even now, many years later, i still glance at the ground and think about finding that treasure!!! thanks for reminding me of a time long gone! barb

  • Had many similar incidents and glad you could relate to something we are always looking for. Enjoyed you comment and your sharing of your prized youth, welcome to our world. Thank you so much for commenting and listening to my thoughts.

    – oscarelizondo

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