I’ve been secretly searching for so many years,
It’s caused me to sweat and I’ve cried a million tears.
My eyes have lost sleep and red have turned my ears,
The blood in my veins has heated as I have shaken-ed in fear.
Nobody has seen me out when I have traveled late at night,
I steer away from people on the street to escape seen by the light.
My presence has been heard, yet I’ve avoided my body from their sight,
Inside my head my conscious tells me to continue because to find it is to do right.
Sometimes it worries me that maybe its not out there to find,
People that tell me that I should not give up are perhaps just being kind.
When I get home empty handed I think that maybe I have really lost my mind,
Denial enters my brain and the fear that I have not seen it makes feel I am blind.
I keep telling myself that maybe tomorrow I shall have more success,
And when I wake up in the morning after loosing sleep I feel like I need to rest.
When I get to work they stare at me as I go in because of how I am dressed,
And I know that if I don’t find it very soon I will have turned my life into a mess.
Copyright © Oscarelizondo Monday February 16, 2010 12:22 AM
Sometimes we search for something that we are not so sure if we will find it, and then when we do find it, we are not so sure it was what we were looking for. Have you ever felt that way? Well, I have and thank you for reading this.