I cannot see beyond the length of my eyelashes
since my heart stopped supplying me with a vision.
Lost are the images of a life so full of golden touches
that made my skin shiver with feelings of a caressing love.
I am totally blinded by acts of cowardliness that ravish
the living cells that once guided the lenses upon my sockets.
My sense of sight can no longer absorb the heavenly reflections
of the light from the sun that made me smile with enviness.
Gone is the wisdom from which my strength once emitted
compassion for myself to triumph from being deep under.
Yearning is my worthless thoughts that only feel self pity
And no moral standards to rise from the ashes of death.
No need to open my eyes anymore since I have failed
to cleanse the lens that once sparkled like diamonds of worth.
Dark is my world that even with eyes wide open no longer sees
that the world out there needs my piece of mind for balance.
I walk with bowed head ashamed to be a burden to all around
knowing that they see all of me even through the clothes I wear.
There is nothing to hide anymore as many no longer care
to wave and let my heart feel the emotional lift that it needs.
My world has been taken from me and the vision to see my future
has come full circle to understand that I’ve become a total fool.
To think that by being myself I could conquer my own nightmares
and find out in the end that the darkest hour is yet to arrive.
These eyes of mine still relate impulses to my soul to let me know
that I will be able to see the real total darkness of my dreams.
Once I meet my demons I shall know of my faith and if I am
to walk alone or if someone will hold my hand to the bitter end.
Copyright © Oscarelizondo Tuesday January 12, 2010 1:23 PM
An old man is bitter at himself for his tragic life that he cannot repair. He is not blind, but his mind is and he knows what awaits him in his lonely world.