nikspix

Hi Bubblers!!

As you might have noticed, I haven’t been here at the bubble much these days. A lot has been going on in my tiny portion of the world, eg., major redecorating of my house! So far, I’ve redone (repainted etc.,) three bedrooms and the bathroom. Next, I’m attacking my son’s room. He can’t wait and neither can I, but it will be a huge job, considering he’s got the biggest room in the house- it’s in the basement, so he can have some kinda reprieve away from his pesky sisters. Anyhow, that’s happening this month. After that, I’ll be redoing the kitchen and living rooms. Can’t wait!

Well the resident ghouls seem to have gone away, or at least into hiding. I smudged out the entire house with white sage from one end to the other and ever since, nothing has happened- at least nothing worth mentioning, so that’s a good thing. It’s also been extrememly peaceful around here.

Okay, now for the only thing on my mind: after three years . . . count ‘em: THREE . . . I finally found out what’s wrong with me- why I’m in constant pain (my right flank) and why I’m exhausted, drained, my periods are all screwed up . . . why I get heart palpitations, dizziness and blurred vision . . . why I feel weak and depressed a lot. I can’t help but celebrate! lol Anyone who has gone through not being able to find a diagnosis knows why I feel like celebrating. Put it this way, over the past three years of going to this doctor and that, for every test under the sun, so it seemed, I didn’t care what they diagnosed me with, as long as it wasn’t something vague like fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome or depression. I’ve been ‘diagnosed’ with all three of those things and none were right—I knew they weren’t right—but I accepted it because what else was I supposed to think?

So finally, since the pain in my side has become almost unbearable, I went back to the doctor and he ordered a CT scan, thinking it was my gallbladder. An ultrasound, about two months ago, didn’t show any stones, but the CT scan did as well as polyp thingies in my gallbladder and inflammation. It also showed something else: a growth on my right adrenal gland.

Well you know how good it feels to finally know what’s wrong with me, even though what’s wrong with me is not so good? I can finally stop feeling guilty, like I was just being lazy because I can’t do much of anything without tiring quickly. I’m so glad I have an understanding husband, who supports me no matter what, and kids who are so kind and helpful.

I don’t know what’s next. I have to go for a second CT scan next week to get a better look at the growth . . . I call it a growth because the word tumor sounds so dramatic. lol The likelihood of it being cancerous is fairly strong, but adrenal cancer is very rare so there’s an equally strong possibility that it’s benign. Don’t you just hate wondering? I sure do. Whatever it is, like I said, I just feel 100% relieved because an adrenal gland growth causes every last one of the ‘symptoms’ I’ve been having for the past three years. Yay!! :)

And no, I’m not freaked out, upset, scared or anything of the sort. Like I said, I’m totally relieved. :)

Cheers!
Nikki