The poison lies within you...
What has life become but merely a one way mirror I cannot tell the difference toward the left or the right.
My heart feels as if turned to stone and I cannot feel for Im overpowered with this mountain..
I long for an answer to lead me to my escape and somehow Ive come to realize what I long to run from lives from within me..
I am what is causing this misery, this soaring confusion, and this bitter anger..
Happiness and excitement lies beyond my grasp, so I stopped trying to reach it.
Water powers the sea, causing waves to guide the ocean, so I stand but as still as these waves tumble and toss me across this world..
A master it has become, for I do not guide my steps, I stand at the mercy of the demons around me. I look to the heavens for an answer, but feel ridicule..
I am alone, and that is the truth, I look to none for support and lean on none for comfort..
Those who come near I push away not out of desire, but to save them from my utter poison..
But here I see true love comes in all different ways
But what I feel for you goes beyond all of what is known
I believe in the unknown for Ive seen it with my own eyes
I trust in your words for they are so sincere
What I desire is what only you can give me
You are the one I long for, the one I love
I close my eyes and desire not
To wake from this dream
The one with you and me
I say forever and forever is what I mean
I give you my heart without a single doubt
I know this is real
I know you are true
Your kisses so sweet, your love so true
One look into your eyes, I feel ever more sure
Sure of your love and sure of your promise
Your everlasting promise as I lay in your arms
To never stop loving me
Never before have I let words enter my heart
Never before have I let my feelings run so deep
So deep my heart aches for you
So strong I would die for you..
Till I stand and curse this poison within me…
Natella2020
Every poison can be purged, and every ailment has a cure. If the cancer is in your soul, search for the cure there as well. Maybe the poison you see is just an illusion that you created, and this recognition will set you free.