a selfish reality

God, i just want to

tear up the paper, rip it to shreds,
toss it, rubbish, right into a waste basket.

no more recycling; this is the ending.
no new beginnings; reality is selfish.

She is selfish.

Flame to burn, substance to mar;
Leave her to scream; leave her to char-
She did this to herself,
You did this to yourself..

how she got into this selfish reality,
is far beyond me. her unfathomable fantasy
worlds in which she lives are nothing to be reckoned with-
compare them to anything and the sense ceases to be made.

destroy her the voices cry

“Don’t worry, it’s alright; she’s nothing-
Harmless, worthless, useless now.
Nothing she can do will hurt you,
Hurt anyone. she can’t hurt anyone-
Not now, not anymore-”

destroy her
but she’s done nothing to deserve-
destroy her
but she’s done nothing wrong!
destroy her
please, you don’t understand, I-

DESTROY HER
but I can’t do that, it’s wrong!
DESTROY HER
please, I’m begging you; you can’t do this, she-
DESTROY HER
but she’s all I-
DESTROY HER
PLEASE! YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO-

but we can,
as can she.

but please, God, please, you’ve made some mistake!
she’s far too innocent for this evil to take
her pure glowing soul into your waiting arms
I swear on my life she’s done nothing to harm
any one of you.

we’re waiting

Wait! I cant’t leave her like this!
It’s wrong, it’s cruel, unholy, unjust!
She wouldn’t have wanted this, she never would’ve wanted this.

the clock is ticking

PLEASE!
I have something more to say!
She’s filled with such beauty, you can’t take that away!

quite like a time bomb

let me say just one more thing!
Love, wake up…God, do you remember me?
do you remember those walks by the pond, the flowers on your doorstep?
the times I held your hand; I sang you to sleep when you couldn’t find rest.
You couldn’t see me; you were on my shoulders…

almost done..

shit! okay, maybe this will help.
just a kiss, just one more kiss,
just one more touch upon your lips-
kisses
did it help? God, just say it helped, say you remember, please remember…
can you remember? please! God…anyone.

time’s up.

no! don’t take her away! please! God! someone, anyone!
HELP! wake me up from this nightmare!
these tears down my face just a sickening reminder of-

Goodbye

no. no.. NO! YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND! YOU CAN’T DO THIS!
PLEASE! I BEG YOU!

oh, but we can. open your eyes, child…this was your own doing.

one more thing, just let me say one more thing!

this isn’t part of the deal, my boy

what? what deal? oh God, don’t tell me she-

yes. she did. and now we leave. we take her with us

but I-

what?

I-

you’ve had your chance and now you’ve lost it. goodbye..

such a cruel voice, such a cold memory.
years pass, but all I can think of are those last three words left unspoken on my guilty lips in naught but a silent, unheard whisper.

I love you

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forever hold your peace sounded all too good at the time, yet remains to this day a reason for the regret of many people…

Comments

  • colindove
    colindoveover 4 years ago

    “I love you” the great painfully whispered words of the deserted , lost,..depression may be one’s closest ‘friend’ !Great expression.
    Colin

  • musicmegan13
    musicmegan13over 4 years ago

    thank you.. I guess it was just a piecing together of many emotions and words etc that make up a world of pain that people deal with and that I deal with myself..

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