God, i just want to
tear up the paper, rip it to shreds,
toss it, rubbish, right into a waste basket.
no more recycling; this is the ending.
no new beginnings; reality is selfish.
She is selfish.
Flame to burn, substance to mar;
Leave her to scream; leave her to char-
She did this to herself,
You did this to yourself..
how she got into this selfish reality,
is far beyond me. her unfathomable fantasy
worlds in which she lives are nothing to be reckoned with-
compare them to anything and the sense ceases to be made.
destroy her the voices cry
“Don’t worry, it’s alright; she’s nothing-
Harmless, worthless, useless now.
Nothing she can do will hurt you,
Hurt anyone. she can’t hurt anyone-
Not now, not anymore-”
but she’s done nothing to deserve-
but she’s done nothing wrong!
please, you don’t understand, I-
but I can’t do that, it’s wrong!
please, I’m begging you; you can’t do this, she-
but she’s all I-
PLEASE! YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO-
but we can,
as can she.
but please, God, please, you’ve made some mistake!
she’s far too innocent for this evil to take
her pure glowing soul into your waiting arms
I swear on my life she’s done nothing to harm
any one of you.
Wait! I cant’t leave her like this!
It’s wrong, it’s cruel, unholy, unjust!
She wouldn’t have wanted this, she never would’ve wanted this.
the clock is ticking
I have something more to say!
She’s filled with such beauty, you can’t take that away!
quite like a time bomb
let me say just one more thing!
Love, wake up…God, do you remember me?
do you remember those walks by the pond, the flowers on your doorstep?
the times I held your hand; I sang you to sleep when you couldn’t find rest.
You couldn’t see me; you were on my shoulders…
shit! okay, maybe this will help.
just a kiss, just one more kiss,
just one more touch upon your lips-
did it help? God, just say it helped, say you remember, please remember…
can you remember? please! God…anyone.
no! don’t take her away! please! God! someone, anyone!
HELP! wake me up from this nightmare!
these tears down my face just a sickening reminder of-
no. no.. NO! YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND! YOU CAN’T DO THIS!
PLEASE! I BEG YOU!
oh, but we can. open your eyes, child…this was your own doing.
one more thing, just let me say one more thing!
this isn’t part of the deal, my boy
what? what deal? oh God, don’t tell me she-
yes. she did. and now we leave. we take her with us
you’ve had your chance and now you’ve lost it. goodbye..
such a cruel voice, such a cold memory.
years pass, but all I can think of are those last three words left unspoken on my guilty lips in naught but a silent, unheard whisper.
I love you
forever hold your peace sounded all too good at the time, yet remains to this day a reason for the regret of many people…