ahh mtda, i hope things start looking up for you soon. you are really down in the dumps at the moment aren’t you..

A little bit I guess, I’m really not this dark and depressing all the time, just find it easier to write about sadness than happiness. Thanks for reading.

I can’t say I know all that you’re feeling; I was lucky (and luck is all it was) enough to learn from other people’s mistakes. I’ve spent time under a “soul sickened Black hearted shroud”, though, (great choice of words for that, by the way) and I wish I had some really great answer for you. Hah! The answers there are aren’t simple.

But, if you’ve never felt this yet, I can offer you something to look forward to. If you learn to write, as you get better, sooner or later, you’ll just start writing and your fingers and your mind will be on fire and before you know it you’ll have written something you at least halfway like. That moment, that’s worth hanging in there for, it’s the best thing I’ve ever experienced. Once you feel it once, if you have to go three years to feel it a single time, it’s worth it (not that it isn’t great when it happens sooner).

Good advice as always, I’ve felt it probably why I choose this medium to get the emotions out, always see the world differently when I’m done. Thanks for stopping by.

but the road ends in water – thank goodness! When pain is very deep – that black shroud deep – we all want to find an escape – it’s as if we can’t breathe one more second of this horrid circumstance, this life – like we’re drowning and we just need some kind of lifeline. But I think without consciously defining it as such, writing is your lifeline. The problem is, as a good friend said to me today, writing makes you think and what you are trying to do is NOT think so much all the time. So paint, she told me – paint anything – finger paint, throw paint, don’t even think about WHAT you’re painting – just paint. Let the color, the movement, the energy of it take you away from all the thinking, Or it could be some physically challenging activity that requires your focus. Whatever it is, it has to take you out of the thinking zone! THEN you can write – lol – which by the way, you already do superbly well, with extraordinary flow, sharp, crisp phrases, evocative images.

Writing is the best cathartic medium I know….it has been for me. I admire your bravery in sharing. There are many of mine that probably will never see the light of day. But thats okay, I got the words out and away from darkening my soul too much before there was no light left…and in the end…thats all that matters. So keep writing, keep getting it out, and I will keep admiring you what you are able to do and convey. Please, never stop.

Amazing, we always want (or need) a release, but thank god we are realizing we can’t have one. Lovely you are wonderful keep up the amazing work honey.
still you are the sexiest man EVER