I remember every ending
All the times you left
The dark space between
Until you came back again
Whenever I want to exit
This dark carousel
My head spins too badly
To find the way off
Why can’t I just erase
My own bleeding heart
Like pencil lead from paper
Leaving behind just a blotch
To be written over
With something fresh and new
These memories of misery
You left me for another man’s touch
And came back
You left for the needle in your vein
And came back
You left to be born again
And came back
You left because death would not allow life
And came back
If I could just bring myself to judge you
Maybe then I would find
The hate I need
To walk away
Forever
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Honey, you’re amazing. I’m sorry for all the pain you have felt and are feeling. I wish I could erase the pain your life, but then it wouldn’t be life. I’m sorry for everything. I hope you have a great day honey, I’m waiting as long as it takes.
OH JFC!!! What a mind shattering bit of writing, m’dear!!! Hey, I’m you hugest fan!!!
OH my Lord – those last lines have completely stripped my soul of any covering at all! This is gut and heart-wrenchingly good – a brilliant work, just absolutely perfect in every detail. I too am sorry for the pain that is the “inspiration” for such an evocative writing but can only say that in the writing itself are the first steps of healing.
what a great flow!!!! you stunned me with your words!!! huggles xoxoxox
Aaaaaaaawwww geez! hun you tear me apart and bring tears to my eyes. The pain you bring forth!!
so much in this … honest and raw … with a beautiful flow … i really resonate with;
You left to be born again
And came back
xx
I have been there… i am still at that palce… truley amazing how you have brought the pain, longing and the love into one place… i really love the way you choose your words to express the inner you… or shall i say the feelings dewlling within you… LOVE IT
If I could just bring myself to judge you
Maybe then I would find
The hate I need
To walk away
Forever
wow……….